Lost Souls (Agent Severide Serie Book 5)

Chapter 5

Chicago Med 

Severide's team left and along with the Intelligence, unit went to see if they could track down the 3 men that she told them about. The brunette agent lay in bed with Jay sat next to her in a chair. The detective refused to leave her side since he found out it was his girlfriend, a knock sounded on the door causing them to look up to find Gabby and Kelly standing there. 

The two didn't recognize the brunette laying in bed she looked opposite to how Zoey looked the last time they'd seen her. "Hey," she said seeing the two a small smile. Kelly walked over going to pull her into a hug but the sudden movement caused her to flinch turning her face away as if she expected him to hit her. 

Kelly's face saddened at his sister's reaction to the hug, "You okay?" her brother asked sitting on the edge of her bed in his work clothes, "Yea, I'm so happy to see you," she said pulling her brother into a hug. "I missed you so much," he said softly holding her, "I missed you more than you know Kells" she said softly as he let her go from the embrace. "What happened to you?" he asked looking at his sister's bright blue eyes even though she visibly had a faded black eye and cuts all over her face. "Don't worry about that, I'm home now. For a while..." she said reassuring him she wasn't going anywhere. 

"You changed your hair," a familiar voice said from the doorway, where Matt was standing along with Herrmann and the rest of firehouse 51. "Yea, I was on a special assignment for a while so they turned me into a modern-day blondie," she said smirking at her own reference. "Don't get used to it, the minute I'm outta here I'm changing it. I don't need reminders of the last 8 months," Severide said the last part more softly honestly just wanting to put this assignment behind her and try to move on with her life even though she knew it'd be hard. 

Severide pushed herself up ignoring her pain, "What are you doing?" Kelly asked confused. "I gotta go to the bathroom," she said swinging her legs over the edge of the bed and standing on her feet. The moment she stood up her vision almost instantly went black and she dropped almost smashing her head on the floor if Gabby hadn't caught her. 

"Whoa, Zoey you okay?" Gabby asked her, "WILL!" Jay yelled causing the ginger-haired doctor to run into the room. Severide's vision slowly came back and she was sitting on the floor with Gabby, Kelly, Jay and Will hovering above her. "Let's get you up," the doctor said as he and Kelly help the agent up and putting her back in bed. 

The ginger instantly checked her pupil's reactivity to light before going over the monitor, "I'll gonna do a blood panel, When was the last time you ate?" he asked her. "I'm not really sure, there wasn't much food where I was, and everyone around me was so high on blow; they hardly ate," she replied earning a look from everyone. "Did you- God no. I hated my life but I didn't wanna ruin it. I stuck to tobacco sometimes pot on the really hard days but I never touched that crap." Severide said honestly. "You smoke pot?" Herrman asked a bit surprised, "I've seen some sick sick shit. Like vile sick low lives of humanity, so I smoked a little bit, it made shit... less painful I guess," she said as a call came through the firefighter's radio. 

"Squad 3, Truck 81, Ambulance 61 structure fire 9346 Wabash," Main said over the radio. "Squad 3 to Main we're on route," Kelly said through the radio. "Take it easy Zo, eat something and listen to doctor Halstead. I'll be back to check on you after this," the squad lieutenant said as her firehouse 51 family walked out of the room along with her older brother who placed a kiss on her head before he left leaving her with the Halstead brothers. "Yes dad," she said sarcastically to him earning an eye roll as the brunette giggled with a smile on her face. 

"You have a gorgeous laugh, I missed it and that smile," Jay said with that smirk that drove her nuts. A knock sounded on the door causing the tree to turn to find Dr. Manning standing there. "I just go the results back from Zoey's pelvic exam, echo and ultrasound," the female doctor said with a look on her face as she handed the folders to the ginger who quickly went over them before pausing in shock looking at the brunette. "Jay, do you mind stepping out of the room for a moment?" Will asked. The detective looked at the brunette who just nodded telling him she'd be okay. 

Jay stood up walking over to the door hesitantly walking out and shutting the sliding glass door behind him as he just stood in the hall not wanting to be too far from Zoey. He just got her back and he didn't wanna lose her ever again. 

"Your pelvic exam showed a lot of torn scar tissue, not to mention tears that didn't heal properly. We have the OR scheduled in a few hours to see what we can do to fix the issue but the overall damage is irreversible.." Dr. Manning said. "What does that mean?" she asked looking at Will who had a sad look across his face. "It means that even if we did surgery and fixed everything, you won't be able to have children," Dr. Halstead said with a sad tone looking at the brunette. 

Severide didn't know what to think, yeah she thought about having a family of her own one day with Jay but after everything she'd seen and been through the idea of bringing a kid into this horrible world felt selfish to her. "I've never seen scaring like this before," Dr. Manning said looking at the scans with confusion on her face as well as the gingers. "The result of having a gun shoved inside me I guess, among other things," she said biting the inside of her cheek while staring at the bed sheet over her body. 

Severide didn't even realize she was gripping the sheet with white knuckles as she tried not to think about how many times she'd been violated in ways she never wanted to remember. Dr. Manning and Will had horrified looks on their face, the agent didn't have to look to know she could feel their eyes on her. "Zo, you know we have people here you can talk to-" Severide just rolled her eyes and laughed. "Yeah, no thanks. I don't do therapy or therapist's and If I go back to work I gotta go see one before I get cleared anyways so... I'm good" Severide said shutting the idea right down.