𝐂𝐮𝐫𝐢𝐨𝐬𝐢𝐭𝐲 𝐊𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐂𝐚𝐭 [AU] (Being rewritten!!)

𝟗 -𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐌𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭

TW!! Eating Disorder!!

(A/N) I finally realized that I've been spelling Akutagawa wrong this entire time, so all the notifications were just me going back and fixing every single Akutagawa I've ever typed into this fanfic:D)

Atsushi lay on his bed, searching his mind for a reason, a way, an escape.
                                                                                                                                                                                                     "I need to get over myself and focus on whatever the hell I plan on telling Akutagawa," Atsushi thought to himself, still not even clear on what their relationship was.

"But..what is he to me..? A friend? An enemy? Maybe..something else..? " Atsushi wondered, his mind making up all sorts of things.

"I guess..it's pretty clear that I see him as something more than just a friend..and maybe I have..small feelings for him.." Atsushi bargained, keeping back the truth from jolting out from the back of his mind.

"Fine...I'll admit...I might just be attracted to him." The stubborn Atsushi accepted.

And with that, he raised his heavy covers, and set them aside thoughtlessly, and confidently. He then carefully stepped out of bed, as he felt slightly sick from this brief depression. Soon after, he compiled the strength as well as courage to walk up to the door that entered the main living space of his apartment. He inhaled a large breath of air and forced the door open rather violently.

The black-haired boy was standing narrowly near the window, with a look of concern and guilt fogging his mind. Swiftly, he turned around to check where the loud BANG had come from, and of course, his eyes had landed on Atsushi. Demonstrating a look of determination and purpose, opposite from what Akutagawa was displaying.

"Atsushi- " Akutagawa said sternly, his intentions only the fairest.

"We need to talk. Now. " Atsushi demanded, trying not to slip up and show all his anxiety for the upcoming moments.

"Y-yes...My thoughts exactly.." Replied the nervous wreck that Akutuagawa was.

"Get in here, now. " Atsushi instructed Akutagawa into his room in such a serious tone, one that even Auktagawa himself would stay clear of pissing off.

Akutagawa fidgeted his thin fingers, as he entered the room quietly. That is until he found the food that had been left by Poe, sitting cold and untouched on Atsushi's nightstand.

"I see you still haven't eaten anything.." Akutagawa pointed out, slightly concerned about why exactly it was that the food Atsushi loved so much had been left uneaten.

"Oh..ugh.." Mumbled Atsushi as he sat down courteously. "Well...Back in that boarding school, I'd be starved, and I'd get called skinny a lot. But whenever I did get to eat, as you'd imagine, as a starving child would, I ate A LOT. " Added Atsushi, preparing to reveal reasoning for eating little. "They'd call me a fatass, a pig, etc. Whatever came to their filthy minds. I guess it just makes me overthink a lot when I eat. I remember what I used to be called just for eating, and it just makes me feel so disgusted by myself."

"Oh...My apologies for asking so rudely. " Akutagawa excused himself, regretting asking him the broad question entirely.

"It's fine, you didn't know. No one ever knows someone's past truly just by looking at them from the outside perspective." Atsushi forgave Aktuagawa swiftly. 

"Anyways, enough about that. More about..well..whatever happened earlier."

"Ah..yes..what specifically? I perceive my end to be pretty clear, you however come off as a complete mess. I am simply unable to read you or your thoughts." Asserted Auktagawa, seemingly troubled by this notion of not being in control.