𝐂𝐮𝐫𝐢𝐨𝐬𝐢𝐭𝐲 𝐊𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐂𝐚𝐭 [AU] (Being rewritten!!)

8 -𝐅𝐞𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬

(TW!! Panic attack,Heavy themes of anxiety & depression, SH) 

"Hello..? Atsushi, are you alright ? " 

He heard a familiar voice spill through the cracks of his door.  It was the one and only, Ranpo. 

"Im fine... I just need some alone time right now ."  Atsushi lied ,laying on the ground hopelessly and in such sorrowing tears. 

"Ugh.." Ranpo sighed in frustration ."Your nose is stuffy,that means you've been crying Atsushi. " Rapoe exhaled, picking up on Atushi's terrible attempt to lie.

"I'm coming in Atsushi, whether you like it or not. " Ranpo insisted, picking the lock with a trusty hairpin.

As soon as he entered the space, the atmosphere changed drastically. It became cold, and unwelcoming , as well as detecting fear so thick he could smell it, and a darkness like no other devouring Atsushi's thoughts entirely. The first thing Ranpo's eyes landed on was Atsuhsi of course. Except instead of finding him curled up in a corner as per usual, he was lying spread wide out on the floor, his arms resting in scarlet lagoons. The moment he noticed the  intimidating scars scattered across Atsushi's limbs, he began to scramble around in a panic,  rushing to find a first-aid kit. Ranpo then helped Atsuhsi up onto his bed, wiping off the blood from the slashes messily placed upon his quickly paling skin. 

"Oh dear god Atsushi.. I need to do something about you...You seriously need to get some help. I can't keep doing this for you every time you mess up.." Ranpo confessed, worried that he was daggering Atsushi's heart with every syllable ,yet felt a sense of relief as he could finally let the truth be fully known. 

"I-.. I'm so sorry I keep bringing you down.. I keep becoming more and more a burden for you to handle.. You should just let me go.. I dont want to keep-"  

"Enough Atsushi! Why'd you think I'd help you if I thought that any point you were just a burden to me?! Honestly all I hear you ever talk about is how much you despise yourself, and how much you wish you could just run away from it instead of actually trying to fix things! You must come to terms with your past because it's not an excuse, or some kind of shield you can use to protect yourself!" Ranpo snapped, explaning nothing but the most sincere of truths.

After a few moments of deafning silence between the two, Ranpo started to quietly weep,leaving wet stains on the no longer white sheets on Atsushi's bed. In more than physical and emotional pain, Atsushi mustered up the sliver of strength he had left, and gathered Ranpo into his leaking arms. 

After what felt like hours of sitting in a calm , mellow embrace, Ranpo let go of Atsushi,  but making sure to keep their fingers intertwined in the process. 

"I- *sniff* have to go..work stuff. But I-i will call Poe over to take care of you in my absence." Ranpo managed to whisper out of his sandpaper throat, choking on whatever came out of it.

"It's alright..I don't mind. But please,don't get too upset over me. It's not that important anyways..." Atsushi tried convincing Ranpo,trying his best to not start bawling all over him again.

Some moments passed by, when Ranpo rapidly stabbed Atsushi's eyes with his own in a terrifyingly pericing glare, a face that of which had previously been left unseen by Atsuhsi before.

" Atsuhsi, never, and I mean never, say that you are unimportant again. " 

"G-got it!" Atsushi shreiked, deathly afriad of what might unfold if he where to respond poorly.

"Great.. Okay now I really must get going. If Poe says or does anything you are uncomfortable with, don't be shy of calling him out, he tends to speak loudly of sensitive subjects at times." Urged Ranpo, half warning Atsushi.