Overlap

Chapter 45: Defective

<02/26/2011 - 17:02 | 44 Greivar Trail, Marietta, GA, USA>

I know I used to say that I'm not the optimist others want me to be. In many situations, I look for the downsides so that I can avoid them. And fairness? Don't even get me started on that. Life does not treat people in a fair or karmic manner. If it did, I wouldn't be suffering so often like I am now. There isn't a single week that can go by where I can be free from a headache.

They have become more common lately, and today, I'm fighting against a level five tension headache. Only this time, since I've already been linked to Lumina, the connection is still active and going. I wish there were something I could do about this, but even Lumina has no clue what is causing these or how to stop it. Now that she knows how much this pain bothers me, she's gone into pity mode again.

"I'm sorry that this is becoming a problem Reed. I wish I could help you, but Altiri science hasn't surpassed human science when it comes to headaches. The illness is still a total mystery to us." A fact that I'm not surprised by, given that the Altiri never get headaches. "Not only that, but the potential causes for headaches among humans seems infinite, and different depending on the person."

Since I was already hurting enough, and since I was in my room alone, I didn't bother using projection to speak, and Lumina followed my lead on that this time. "You might as well admit it. I'm totally screwed. I'm going to be plagued by these headaches forever. I'll never be able to live like this." I may sound dramatic to her, but I doubt anyone would sound different if they had 3-4 headaches every single week. Even that much is high for me, so it may go down later, but it's the biggest buzz kill.

"I'm sorry you're in constant pain Reed. I just don't know what to do for you. This is the one thing I don't have advice on."

"They've gotten worse, and more frequent too. But, I do believe you, when you said that the purge and these connections are not related to them." I get these things whether I'm connected to Lumina or not. There is no pattern between them. Even before the purge, I've had headaches. They seemed to start up at a different period in time, when I was exposed to mold, giving me tons of random new allergies. In other words, Lumina is not the cause of this.

"I already knew that. But I just don't know what could be causing them... When did they first start?"

"I don't even know anymore, but they're wrecking my entire life now, and the medicine I have isn't even working. I could upgrade to stronger pills, but I heard that most of that stuff is addicting, even for some of the over-the-counter pills."

"Still, to think you would even consider going that far... Is it really that bad?"

I don't blame Lumina for asking. I bet she's cautiously curious about this, since the pain from headaches never transfers over in telepathy. "It is, but it could be a lot worse. Even when they're not bad, having even a small one dents my focus and makes life less enjoyable for me. Mine is not that bad right now. If it were, I wouldn't be talking to you." It's a small rule sheet I established. Connecting to Lumina is only possible if the headache is below a level 4. However, if already connected, the pain can jump all the way to a level 5.5 without the connection being forced to drop. Once it reaches six, all bets are off.

I knew it was wrong totalk about this right now. I can sense a sort of guilt with her, something sheshould never feel for me. "But these things can go all the way up to a tenon the pain scale. Once that happens, I'm forced to just stay on the floor,kicking and screaming in agony. It's literally worse than anything I've everexperienced before. Since they are as frequent as three days a week at random,you can see how bad things are." I had a level ten two days ago. Eventhough two days have passed since, my body physically trembles, shaking fromthe fear of having another one, at least during a moment I'm pain free again. Idon't shake in fear over anything; it just isn't me, except for this oneinstance.