Overlap

Chapter 86: Premonition 002

<02/20/2012 - ??:?? | Location Unknown>

More often than not, whether I'm asleep or awake, I keep finding myself immersed inside some incredible or amazing worlds. Even when I no longer have the ability to participate in lucid dreaming, the memories I bring back from them leave me in a state of montrum for these new worlds. They're so incredible, so fascinating and full of mystery. Each time I find myself in these places, the sky above me is filled with storm, always is the airspace a specific full color of blue. Whatever is out there calling my soul; how badly I want to answer and find out what is on the other side of our boundaries.

But I had to be real, abode by the rules and laws we refer to as reality, opposite of imagination. Still, as amazing as I found the deepest corners of my own mind, I was certain about one other aspect. Lumina and everything about her world are also part of reality. Some would think that I've imagined Lumina as well, but I can assure anyone that this isn't the case. Even in times where I'm not sure how I know what I know, I am absolutely positive that Lumina exists.

It's not myself I needed to convince, but rather anybody else in my vicinity that I deemed worthy of my personal friendship. Trying to talk to another human regarding the principles of the Altiri civilization was no easy task. I've already tried this once and was blasted down for my ignorance. Despite Lumina's warning, and despite my own experiences, I was ready to try again today. With the girl already in front of me, our full attention on each other, I knew I would have to pull out all I could to make myself sound more convincing.

"What I'm telling you is real. I know how crazy it sounds, but all that stuff about psionic telepathy really happened to me. My girlfriend is an alien. Everything about her world is incredible, and there's no reason to believe it merely part of someone's fantasy."

"You mean your fantasy? I don't know. You're telling me some really strange stuff." She shied backwards, averting her gaze from me. The girl was too ashamed to even look at me now.

I haven't spoken very often to Malica Ridge ever since that day she and I first met. I wasn't even sure what she was doing in gym class today, since she doesn't actually have a class here. But between the free-for-all periods and the way students can just roam around when the excuse sounds good enough, her presence didn't really strike me as odd. Every now and then, she and I would generally chat about how we've been. Today however, I wasn't willing to let her go in bliss like each time before.

Every time I have to lie to somebody I know about Lumina, every time I have to pretend like I'm somehow protecting her when I clam up about our secret, my heart twists a little more. How long should I have to hide this from people? How long must I go isolating myself from everybody over something that only I know? I may not know Ms. Ridge as well as I do others, but right now, I'm choosing to trust her with something important.

However, I could see already how quick she was to assume I was insane, by the looks in her expression, body language, and her stone cold words. "So what if it's weird? It's the truth. I've had to put up with this for more than a year, all by myself. I didn't ask to be purged by an Altiri alien, but that's just what happened to me. Ever since that day, I've had Lumina's voice in my head each day that it's been cold enough."

"You're not going to make any friends if you keep believing that." She didn't sound confident enough to continue arguing with me. Malica instead started walking off gently towards the direction of some of her friends.

Naturally, I had to follow her to keep up, but it wouldn't be long before she walks in earshot range for any random stranger to hear what we were talking about; I knew what she was doing. "Even I realize it's not going to be easy for me to get along with anyone like this, but I have to try."