But I'm a Cheerleader!

Oh I'm So Pathetic

POV: Eliot
After we got there I stayed with Sofia but after a while she drifted off to her cheerleader friends. I sighed and wondered aimlessly, I honestly don't know what I'm doing.

Oh, wait! Max invited me, so I can find him. Oh I'm so stupid. I walked to the kitchen, no Max. To the living room, no Max. Dining room, a Max. He's playing a drinking game. He just got a ball into the cup. Interesting. Not. He high-fives his friends and looks around. His eyes catch mine and I stare for a moment. A smile spread across his face.

"Hey. You made it!" He said jogging over. "Yup. I did come with someone, but they seem to have left me so...." "Aw I'm second choice?" He pouted. I rolled my eyes to that.

I had a little something to drink and we talked. A girl beckoned him over to her and he followed. They went down some hallway and again, I was alone. I sat for a little then decided to get up again. Maybe his conversation with the girl was over.

I walked a little and saw two people making out. I recognized the girl from her pink shirt shorts. I was about to turn when I noticed it was Max. Oops. I should give them privacy. Though they're making out in a hallway, gawking seems rude. He lifts his head and spots me as him turning. "Eliot-" he calls out. I turn back. He tell the girl leave and calls me over. I have this weird feeling in my stomach. Not butterflies, more like moths. Some gut feeling telling me this is a bad idea but I obliged.

"Sorry." I say. "No I'm sorry." He let outs a stifled sigh. "Why..." I asked confused. "Well like- I just- I..." "You can kiss who you want. It's not like we're dating." I chuckle. His embarrassed face turns into confusion. "Well...I'd like to." He says. What the-. "What- what do you mean?" I say blinking quickly. A confused look makes it's way on to my face and I start getting fidgety. "Well..." he laughs. "I like you." A smile grows on his face. It looks hopeful. "Oh." Is all that comes out. An angry look take over his face. Uh oh.

"O-oh?" He asks. "I confessed my liking to you and you say- oh!" He's getting out of control. "I'm a lesbian. I though you knew. I mean Brady kinda...told everyone." I was rubbing my fingers together. "I can change you-" Oh now I'm mad. "Even if I wasn't a lesbian I wouldn't date you." "And why is that!" He raised his voice more. "Well first off I walked through on you with your tongue down a girls throat. Not even in a private place so like-" I let out an exasperated sigh. "Two. You can't change one's sexuality. That's not how that works. So if I was miraculously straight I wouldn't date someone with those views!" My face contorted into disgust. I narrowed my eyes and got close to his face "I wouldn't date a bigot."

A hand is on my shoulder and I gaps and turn around. It's Sofia. My face falls into relief. "Heyyyyy Eliooot. Can you take me home?" She says. Wow she's hammered. I see her cheeks turn pink. I fully face myself to her and smile. "Of course." I say softly. I turns to Max and her face drops back into anger. "Bye." Is all I can muster saying before I gently drag Sofia out.

I can see she wants to say something but is brings her tongue "What were you guys taking about?" She slurred out. I opened the car door for her and got in myself. She sighs. "I'll tell you later when you're less drunk." I says smiling at her.

I dropped her off and made my way home. I regret everything. I regret going. I regret letting Sofia leave me. I regret searching for Max. I regret staying while he said those things. I regret having Sofia see that. I regret-

My eyes widen and swerve. A car almost hit me. I pull over to the side of the road. Oh my god. I sigh. I lay back in the seat and close my eyes. I need to focus. Stop thinking about the bad. I might regret all that stuff but every time I saw Sofia she was so happy, which made me happy. It's not my fault Max is a douchebag. Don't let him ruin the good parts of tonight.

I put my hands back on the wheel and take a deep breath. I pull out and drive the rest of the way home.

After getting home and fully locking up, I go to my room. I change and turn the lights off. I put my "(U_U)" playlist on and sit waiting to fall asleep. I bite my lips and squeeze my eyes shut. I haven't drunken much but for some reason finally sitting, everything comes flooding back. Being alone, Max, the car. My eyes get glassy and I let out a muffled sigh. It's shaky and short. After a single tear falls. Then another. Then another. They get faster and stream together until I'm full on crying.

I cry into my pillow, muffling it so no one hears. Times like this make me wish I had a shoulder rot cry onto. I wish I had a mom. My cries grow quiet and my eyes flutter shut. I'm fall asleep crying. Oh I'm so pathetic.

Mwahaha. A sad chapter. Sorry. I hope this was good. I wanted to do another double pov moment with them so ya. If ur feeling sad pls find help. No one should have to suffer. And if you are getting better, then I hope you a great recovery from whatever happened. To those who have gotten better, I'm proud of you. And to those who know someone who couldn't get better, I'm sorry and I wish you the best with that. I know I'm usually super happy but I know what it's like to be I a bad place, and I would never wish that anyone had to stay in that bad place. Sorry for the deep convo but I thought I'd just say this. That's all for tonight so
anyyyywayyyssss...
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