I watch it burn in front of me through the blurry vision of my tearful eyes. The night was quiet, the only sound being the rising flames I set on Miles's notebook in Alexis's backyard. That it hasn't been read by me for a whole month isn't a lie, but I have opened it, far too many times, wanting to get a part of him, feel near to him again, but I've closed it every time, eager to let go. And today, the first thing I did when I got back home was opening the book and start reading for God knows what reason. Maybe because I thought I saw him and I couldn't hide the feeling of missing him anymore.
Dear Sunshine,
It's been a while. You've got a new nickname by the way and I feel like I might have to explain it to you. I discovered the reason behind my waiting for you impatiently every day to knock on my door after your classes. You know how most people hate the night mostly because of the dark and they can't wait for the sun to shine and the day to begin, bringing the light with it? That's kind of the way I feel with you. My days were long eternal nights filled with darkness until I meet you. You were the sun that shone on my life and turned my eternal nights into meaningful days and that's why I think Sunshine is a very suitable name for you, Sunshine.
I feel my heart tear apart as I finished it. It wasn't fear. This wasn't fear. I just kept keeping my hopes up in vain. It had to stop, in any way, even if it meant I got rid of the last reminder of him, the notebook. I jumped up to my feet, still in my suit from earlier, and walked down the stairs in haste before I could change my mind and cave into the part of my brain that wanted to keep it. I stopped by the kitchen to grab a lighter and then headed out to the backyard where I threw the book in front of me and lit a fire on it. It burned while I cried in silence.
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His secret
RomanceNova is a young woman trying to live her life and get past the loss of her brother that she blames herself for. By her side is her best friend Miles that seems to have a dark past that he refuses to share with Nova. What is Miles sacred and at what...
