Thoughts Collected

entry 47

9/22/22

Tonight my mind thinks of you

With your blond hair and bright blue eyes

The way you laughed rings forever in my heart

For you were a young soul taken too soon

It's been many years since I lost you

Some days I have to admit I don't think of you

But other days, you are all that is on my mind

Grief comes and goes

A ball bouncing around in a box

Over time the box gets bigger

Just as I grow as time passes by

But the ball still bounces around

That's when these nights come to haunt me

I lay awake, the memories of you playing through my head

Your house smelled of incense

The same one that burns at my temple

Your room reminded me of the hallway closet I once called my room

It was just big enough to fit a bed and dresser

Little walkways between the bed and the wall

I felt protected from the world in there with you

I remember your dog with his one eye

He didn't like strangers but when we met, he loved me right away

I was so happy your dog liked me

That moment almost brought tears to my eyes

We once went to the neighborhood school

And climbed up a fence to get on the roof

Up there I felt free from everything

All these memories I hold in my heart

Forever sacred, forever held dear

My grief will come and go, as the ball bounces around the growing box

But don't worry, I won't ever forget you

As long as I love you that grief will not disappear

And I choose to love you until the end of time