Just A Monster (KP FIC)

6

Yippee update

It had been days since my last meal and I felt I was going to pass out at any given moment. I felt self hatred after what I had done to a person I considered friend and another someone considered food. I pushed my self to eat human foods for the past week and it only made me feel more empty and sick to my stomach, I swear I remember coughing up blood just the day before. I'm not sure how much longer I can torture my self. 

Like any usual day, I sat in the cafe and watched Sprinklekit serve and work to feed the gootraxians of laminax. Possibly screaming at anyone with extremely long orders and such. Me and Sprinkle both lacked proper etiquette, we had so much in common and yet I still felt we were distant. I decided I'd clear my mind up and try to help around the cafeteria, standing up and walking to settle beside them as they leaned their shoulders against the counter. 

"Hey Sprinkle!" I lean my back against the perch and looked down towards them with a smile. Pretty much refusing to make eye contact with me, they shifted the other way with a faint grin.

"Hey Mochi.." They purred in an almost silent tone. Should I bother to question it? With all I had going on it'd sound a bit hypocritical. I let my smile fade into a nervous bare as we sat in silence once again, usually I would welcome such silence but this time it was disturbing and it felt uneasy.

"Are you hiding something from me?" Sprinkle suddenly broke the thick aura around the room. Such a.. ODD question. I nervously chuckled none the less. 

"Sprinkle your not my mom. Even you have secrets." I joked, hoping I hadn't made my current situation worst. They turned to look at me with a brow raised and a frown on their face, seeing right through my petty disguise.

"Well yeah I know THAT.. But I feel like whatever your hiding is mega extreme." They firmly stated, oddly specific in my point of view. I lifted my self off of the counter and looked the other way, their gaze was painful to look at, I shifted awkwardly in my frame.

"What do you mean... EXTREME? That seems very specific Sprinkle." I mumbled. I felt a cold paw grasp my wrist as Sprinklekit only let an annoyed sigh escape their lips. Possibly trying to make me look towards them.

"Don't bullshit me Mochi. Your acting really strange towards everybody and we barely even talk anymore." Their tone strengthens, intimidating me despite our sizes. I couldn't even find a reasonable response to their sudden outburst. 

"It's like you don't even exist.." They breathed. I bared my teeth slightly, grinding them against each other. Of course. I hadn't thought of how my actions had affected the others around me. Classic Mochi. I felt tears prick my eyes as my thoughts shamed me for the weight I had put on my friends shoulders, why would somebody do that? Why would I do that? I pulled my arm away from them and looked directly towards the ground in an attempt to sooth my self. 

"Mochi?" Sprinklekit said, their voice sounding more broken each time they managed to speak. I raised my wings to rest beside me, feeling tears run down my face and falling to the ground below me. I can't look at them anymore. I wish I had never come over here in the first place..

"Well. I'm gonna close the cafe early today, take some time to clear my head." They sighed in defeat. I heard them walk towards the door, the sound of their heavy steps pausing for a moment before continuing again. The door slamming shut announcing their exit. I dropped to the floor and continued to cry, despite Sprinklekit having been the one turned down and ignored, I was the one crying. I felt selfish for even doing so feeling eager to silence my self so I could at least show that I still cared. Did I REALLY care though? I only did eat Feizao just to save my own skin. And I lied to everybody in the process. I don't deserve them as my friends.