The Line Between Light And Dark

Ch 20. Admitting You Need Help Is Half The Battle

Mentions of Suicidal thoughts, Depression, Anxiety Disorder, PTSD, and other Mental Disorders.

(This Is With My OWN Experience In Mind And Others May Experience Things Differently Then I Do!)

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Izuku hesitated as he walked into the main area of the apartment he lived in with Aizawa, before approaching the exhausted looking teacher. The conversation with the users having finally made him admit that he needed to get help, that it wasn't healthy to keep everything he felt within himself.

"Aizawa?" Izuku spoke quietly and the black haired Hero turned towards him, looking annoyed." I think I need help..."

Aizawa's face immediately went from annoyed to concerned, they gestured for him to sit on a chair and Izuku did so. His heart was heavy and emotions were rushing through him, wondering if the Hero would listen to him.

"What do you need, Midoriya?" Aizawa asked softly, much more softly then his normal way of speaking.

"I've been having, thoughts of suicide for a while." Izuku began slowly, not meeting his teachers eyes." I feel like I am drowning, that nothing I do makes a difference as everyone has already made their assumptions about me. I feel like nothing but one or two things makes my life feel any sort of color, like everything else is just black and white...I think I might have depression and I've been ignoring it."

Aizawa immediately walked around the table and knelt in front of him, a look of concern inside their eyes.

"Hey, if this is how you really feel, then we can arrange a meeting with Hound Dog, UA's therapist." Aizawa said and gave a small reassuring smile." We can also think about getting some med's for you, if Hound Dog recommends it....I am extremely proud of you, Midoriya, for bringing this to me. It can't have been easy."

Izuku felt like a weight had been taken off his shoulders and he just lurched forward, hugging Aizawa tightly as he sobbed into their capture weapon. He just felt the teacher rubbing his back soothingly, while murmuring that everything would be ok. For once, Izuku actually believed it and it just made him cry even harder.

"Thank you, thank you so much..." Izuku cried and Aizawa just let out a comforting hum, a tune Izuku wasn't familiar.

For nearly twenty minutes, Izuku clung to his teacher and just cried. It felt so good getting all his emotions out, not having to keep them in and just allow everything that was building up to release some pressure. It didn't make his mindset any different, but it did help the emotional turmoil that was raging inside him at any given moment.

It took nearly five more minutes to calm himself enough to pull back, then he gave his teacher a small smile.

"Let's get you over to Hound Dog, I can get someone to substitute for a couple of hours." Aizawa said and helped him get to his feet, although he didn't like the idea of pulling his teacher away from class.

However he had no energy to argue with them, so he just nodded and was lead of the apartment and to the main school. He hadn't ever met or seen Hound Dog, but they had a extremely good record of helping people. So he supposed given the circumstances, they would be the best chance of getting better.

It didn't take long to reach the office, as soon as he entered Hound Dog looked up from their desk and tilted their head.

"Aizawa, Midoriya, is there something you need?" Hound Dog asked, his voice sounding muffled by woofs.

"There is actually, Midoriya, why don't you explain things to Hound Dog." Aizawa coaxed gently, making Izuku take a deep breath as he prepared to explain his feelings to someone he had never even met before.