CAPTUS || JinKook

13. Mistakes

Jin hesitated to come with Namjoon as he didn't know where Namjoon would bring him. But at the same time, he would regret it if they would be talking about his son's custody and he wouldn't come. He dragged himself and rode Namjoon's car where the latter had been waiting.

After fastening his seatbelt, his head turned to the right where a silver car was parked. Though both their windows were tinted, he could see a silhouette of the driver inside. And he didn't know why he felt as if he was looking eye to eye with the man. His eyes were staring at the blackish window of the silver car as Namjoon slowly drove away.

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5 Minutes Ago

Jungkook made a U-Turn after leaving Yoongi at the coffee shop. He wasn't pleased to discover Jin working two jobs a day and staying up late only to wake up a few hours later to work again. Probably after getting only an hour or two of sleep. He could not fathom the thought of how Namjoon allowed his husband to do that. To think that he's a millionaire.

He was aware he should not feel that way. As Yoongi said, he should not be so concerned about things he shouldn't be concerned about. But he couldn't escape from what he truly felt. He knew Jin was married and he should stay away, but he could not. And the more he tried to stay away, the more his heart was telling otherwise.

After spending some time in front of a closed store, Jungkook drove back to the coffee shop and parked his car beside another luxury car. He wanted to see Jin badly and he felt he wouldn't be able to sleep if he couldn't. Or at least give him a ride home. Even though he knew the possibility that Namjoon might fetch Jin.

As soon as he saw Jin making his way out of the shop, he opened his car door only to close it again as he saw a tall man approaching Jin. When the man put his arm around Jin's waist, Jungkook brought his hands on the steering wheel, his fingers clenched tightly around it as his eyes glared at the two men probably exchanging sweet nothings with each other.

He should have made a reverse but he watched Jin walk toward the car and made his way in. Jungkook wavered to look back but it seemed someone was turning his head to look.

His window car was heavily tinted but he could see Jin seated in the car just beside his. And he was sure that their eyes locked with each other. Even before Jin went inside the car, he could see the sadness in Jin's eyes. And even behind a tinted window, he could see and feel them. He didn't know why he should feel that way. Perhaps, it was his insecurities. Or the frustration that Jin could not be his. Or the unnecessary thought of why he didn't meet Jin first. 

And for the second time, his heart was broken again.

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Jin thought his body froze when Namjoon stopped in front of the apartment where he was staying. It just confirmed that he was being followed by someone as his job in the coffee shop was also known.

"Let's just talk here. I have no space in my unit for us to talk." Jin was embarrassed to let Namjoon in his apartment. He knew Namjoon would insult him. And he didn't want to create an impression that he could not raise his child under that condition.

Namjoon barked a laugh and went out of the car. He then opened the passenger door waiting for Jin to get out. And as soon as Jin was out, Namjoon headed toward the stairs and climbed up to Jin's unit. Though Jin wasn't surprised as he knew Namjoon was capable of knowing such things, he didn't like how he was being followed as if he was an enemy.

Jin opened the door of his unit. It was cramped but neat. He saw how Namjoon's eyes wandered around his 15sqm unit and he saw how a smirk formed on Namjoon's face.

"How brave you are to beg for me to give Sunghoon to you. Is this where you will raise him?" Namjoon said while his eyes roam around the small room. Rubbing his nose from time to time as if he was smelling something odd. Jin understood as their former shared home had plenty of air purifiers and diffusers.

Jin sniffled a sob. His emotions suddenly kicked in. He swallowed several times before he was able to speak. "Namjoon, I have nothing as of now. That's why I am working. I will look for a better home soon. I am a father, who wouldn't want to be with their child? I know you will not give him to me but all I want is a weekend with him."

"How dare you tell me you will let him sleep in this room. Do you really think I will allow that? Are you even thinking, Jin?"

Jin shook his head frantically, holding Namjoon's hand out of desperation. "No. If you don't want him to sleep with me, I will send him home before nighttime. Just let me be with him once a week. Once a month is fine. Please Namjoon, just let me be with Sunghoon. Please."

Namjoon snatched his hand away and took something from his pocket before handing it over to Jin. Jin already knew what was inside the white envelope and tears streamed down his face.

"Just sign the divorce paper so you won't need to go to court with me since I know you don't have the financial means to do that. It is a mutual decision in the first place, right Seokjin?"

Seokjin stared at the paper as he sobbed. He thought he was ready for the divorce if presented to him. But at that moment, he could not understand why it pained him that much. He had to admit, he loved and cherished his husband, no matter what their differences were.

"I am giving you what you have been wanting for so long. You wanted freedom. So you can go out with your so-called friends who let you live in this kind of... What? Cave? Anyway, I know you wanted that so just sign and we are over."

Namjoon handed Jin a pen. It took some time before Jin could even sign the paper. No matter how many times he tried to read the words, he could not comprehend anything. His mind was clouded and he felt he was going to faint. With shaking hands, he put his signature.

A wide smile appeared on Namjoon's face as he folded and placed the document back in the envelope. "I hope you're happy now that you got what you have been dreaming of. Being my husband is boring, like what you've said."

"Namjoon, please. I did not say that. It never came to my mind. I love being your husband. I've been a good husband to you."

Namjoon just chuckled as he prepared to leave. "You were and I am grateful because you had been one. But you chose your friends and your freedom over your family. It is what you want not mine. But since you are important to me, I gave it to you."

Jin suddenly wrapped his arms around Namjoon's waist, tears falling from his eyes, "Namjoon, please. Please give me a chance. I'm sorry it appeared to be like that. I promise you I won't go out without your permission. I won't complain. I will serve and love you and our son. Just please, don't do this to me."

Namjoon tried to remove Jin's arms but Jin grabbed his head and forced themselves to kiss. Jin pressed his lips against Namjoon as his hand caressed Namjoon's chest. Namjoon gave what Jin wanted. Namjoon's hands moved down, squeezing Jin's ass. As Jin moaned, Namjoon found himself completely turned on. Removing his coat and throwing it on the floor, Namjoon laid Jin down on the bed as they continue to kiss.

RINGGGGG

Jin shut his eyes tight as he tried to find his phone with his hand. The continuous ringing of his phone woke him up from his slumber. He opened one of his eyes and the bright light coming through his curtainless window made him close it again. And just then, his eyes shot open. Looking at his naked body, his eyes widened as he answered the phone.

"Jimin, I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm late. I'll be there by 9." Jin didn't let Jimin speak. In a panic, he accidentally rolled down to the floor. Pushing himself up, he slipped back down. Realizing he stepped on a used condom, Jin bursts out crying as he slumped back on the floor. Hitting himself repeatedly as he remembered what had transpired some hours ago. He let his guard down once more. "Stupid Jin. You're so fucking stupid!!"