He Saved Me 2

Fiji

Arely's POV

3 weeks later...

Most of my morning was spent getting Jr. ready for my parents to come get him. They hadn't seen him in a minute so my mom is going to waste no time getting over here to see him. On top of that, I think Landon and I could use a break from Jr. Here recently, Landon was put on a different anti-epileptic medication and it's made his anger significantly worse.

Some days he doesn't even talk, but I know it's because he'd rather be silent than to say something he doesn't mean. I completely understand that, however it doesn't mean that the silent treatment doesn't hurt.

On the bright side, he has been doing so much better physically. He's still building his strength back up but he can walk on his own and do certain physical activities. His doctor said he could return to work in 2 more weeks which makes me happy and nervous.

With him being at work, I can't help him when he might really need it. Plus it's not like anyone else would understand what he's going through if he does start feeling bad.

I snapped out of my thoughts when I heard a knock at the door.

"Heyyy!" My mom instantly gave me a big hug.

"How're you guys doing?" My dad asked.

"We're good." I replied.

"How's Landon doing?" My dad asked.

"He's okay. Recovering still" I nodded.

My mom took Jr. from my hands so I could have a break.

"Wowww, he's getting big already" she had a big ole grin plastered on her face.

"I know" I chuckled.

"Well, we can't stay for too long, we have plans with this little guy" I laughed and shook my head as my parents walked out the front door.

"Baby" Landon called from the room.

"Yeah," I jogged back to the room. "What's wrong?"

"I miss you" he pat my side of the bed.

I laid next to him and he hugged me.

"Thank you for all that you do for me"

"... You know, I don't think I'd do it for anyone else but you." I stared into his beautiful green eyes.

He gave me a kiss as he brought me closer to him. Truthfully, the way he was holding me was turning me on. It's something about his body that gets me every time...

Every. Single. Time.

He could get anything he wanted from me if he wanted to... almost anything.

"What's on your mind?" I asked him.

"Nothing. I just missed you" he replied.

"Hmm." I wasn't convinced by his answer.

"What?"

"Nothing." I grinned.

I'm fucking horny!! I tried my hardest to get rid of that thought in my head.

It makes me feel bad when I think of dirty shit when I'm trying to take care of him. It's like the smallest shit he does can turn me into Fiji in a heartbeat.

"Babe" I felt myself getting more aroused.

"Yeah?" He looked at me.

"Mmm, umm... Uhh let's lay a different way" I chuckled.

"Were you not comfortable?" He seemed sad.

"No, it's not that. I just wanted to put my head on your chest... I like hearing your heartbeat. It makes me fall asleep faster"

We repositioned ourselves then he held onto me.

Landon's POV

As much as my mind wanted to have sex with Arely right now, my body was saying otherwise and it was pissing me off. I know she wants to have sex too but I honestly don't know what the fuck is wrong with me.

She rolled on top of me which would usually turn me on, but instead it made me kind of frustrated. Not because she got on top of me but because my body wasn't doing what I wanted it to.

"Relly" I tried stopping her from kissing my neck because I just wasn't feeling it.

She continued to kiss on me and I didn't really know how to tell her to stop without sounding like an asshole.

"Baby... hold on..." I said in between kisses.

"What?" She continued trying to go down on me.

"Wait... hold on, damn JUST FUCKING STOP!!" I snapped.

She jumped off of me like she was scared of me.

"I'm sorry"

"... It's fine." She shook her head.

I knew I hurt her with that one because she walked out of the room and closed the door behind her without saying a word to me.

"Fuck!" I whispered.

I'm so fucking stupid. I thought.

I really felt disgusted with myself. I was ashamed that I couldn't give her what she wanted and it's all because of this epilepsy shit. Tears squeezed through my closed eye lids as I thought about what just happened.

She might not forgive me for this one. I told myself.

I wanted to tell her, but at the same time it's very embarrassing telling anyone that you can't get hard. I don't want her to make me feel bad about it so to avoid that, I just won't tell her.

Avoiding that whole situation in itself would make me feel like it's not even happening.

And hopefully with time this shit will change...

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