She was Cool

Cool 40

"Hindi ka ba galit?"

"Of course I am Yashi. I was even hurt seeing you in that state. Walang malay at duguan. For all my life, I didn't imagine to see you in a hospital with a gunshot."

Napayuko ako. "I'm sorry dad. I disappointed you again"

We were at the garden in our house. I was sitting here alone earlier when he approach me and ask about what happened at the practice game until I ask him that question. I suddenly feel like, I wanted to know what he feels since I never heard anything from him after that day. I never heard him rage at me which is really weird.

"Nagalit ako Yashi pero hindi sayo kundi sa sarili ko. I'm sorry because for the second time, hindi kita nagawang ilayo sa kapahamakan. And I just want to ask you something, please, just please take care of yourself." I hugged him.

"I'm sorry daddy I'm sorry" as I cried on his arms. I just wanted to settle things but it turned out the other way and what worst is mom and Yael didn't let me explain first and just concluded that it was me who done it to Penn. I once again felt the feeling of unaccompanied, that no one else is there for me. Masakit po yung sarili kong pamilya ang mismong umabandona sakin. Daddy ang sakit po sa pakiramdam. He patted my back kaya mas lalo akong naiyak.

"Explain and you will be heard. Yashi we are your family, we will always here for you no matter what because we love you. If you wanted to be trusted then you have to trust as well"

Kaya ko na ba? Handa na ba ako malaman ang reaction nila kapag ka sinabi ko yung side ko? Kaya ko bang tanggapin kung sakaling hindi sila maniwala? Pero tama si Daddy. Kailangan kong magtiwala kung gusto kong paniwalaan ako.

Mas natatakot akong hindi paniwalaan. I think I'd rather die than telling truth that they won't believe... Seeing them treating me cold is more hurtful than any physical harm

The next morning.

Nakasabay ko sya sa kitchen. I was making my milk and I thought of making for her too so I ask her. "Gusto mo bang ipag timpla kita ng gatas mom? Naisip ko lang na bago ka pumasok ng wor—-"

"I'd rather suffer from hungriness... magsabi kalang ng totoo" putol nya sa sasabihin ko. Hindi na ako ng nakasagot dahil naka alis na sya

Pumasok ako ng paaralan na mag-isa. Hindi ko na nakakasabay si Yael pati na sina Cleo. Pumara nalang ako ng taxi papasok ng school.

Pagkadating ko ng Tdemy ay nakita ko yung si Filardi  na naka sandal sa labas ng sasakyan nya at parang may hininhintay. Nagpatay malisya akong hindi sya nakita saka naglakad papasok na sana ng campus when he suddenly grabs my hand. He asks me to come with him, I was hesitant but still approve for one reason, I also have many questions to ask.