A Sirius Black Fanfiction~The Light To My Dark.

Chapter Twenty Six~Isolation.

-20th December, 1996-

-Evie's POV-

It had been six months since I lost Sirius. How did I feel? Physically, I felt weak, tired all the time, just apathetic. I didn't care about anything, sometimes including your my life. There's this constant tightness in my chest that feels like a constant adrenaline rush and after awhile it becomes painful but it wont stop. Mentally, it was like my whole world was black and white. I don't see beauty anymore and I wonder how others can be so happy. I just feel like constantly crying and the littlest things will set me off. I sat down on my chair and looked at my front door. In front of it were piles of letters from Harry. I couldn't bring myself to open them. I had alienated myself from the world. The only people I spoke to were Remus, Tonks and Molly. They were extremely worried about me. Tonks visited me today. I was still in my pyjamas and I had not eaten, I couldn't bring myself to eat.

I let her in and as usual, she gave me a concerned look. "How are you?" She questioned in a soft voice. "Torn." I replied weakly. She hugged me and followed me inside. She saw all the letters from Harry I hadn't opened and shook her head. "He's lost without you Evie. He thinks you don't care." She informed me sadly. "I understand... but I just can't open them... I know it's selfish..." I admitted with guilt. "Would you be up to seeing him?" She questioned. I thought about it. I decided it would be a good idea. I nodded. "We're spending Christmas at the Weasley's, you should come along, I don't want you to be alone." She smiled. I nodded and agreed. It was going to be hard, but I needed to grieve with him.