AN: Life obviously got ahead of me since It's been a few years since i've posted. My goal is to try and post more but i'm not making any promises!
Katy POV:
I hung up and phone and I don't know why but started bawling again. This chemo and Ni not being here has my emotions going in every which way. I think the reality of everything is just starting to hit me today and I wasn't prepared for it. I haven't really had time to slow down since my diagnosis besides for these last few days. I thankful I have such a support system or I don't know what I would do"so that walk" (a)
"oh yeah sorry" I say whipping my tears laughing a little
"Don't ever be sorry for feeling your feelings. The walk will be a nice break. I really think some fresh air would do you well"
"I agree"
Ashlyn knew just what I needed, Once we made it through the hospital, we got outside and the first gust of air hit me. My bald and bare head.
"so that's what it feels like to be bald" I say laughing
"Never something I imagined I would ever feel before" (a)
"Oh hey you're up!" I hear haz saying from a distance
"yeah, ashlyn talked me into going on a walk"
"So I see, I also notice the new hair do. I like it."
"yeah it's hard miss"
"Eh, you'd be surprised. Anyways, you have a few tests that need to be done tonight so we can get baselines and see if the chemo is working or not"
"Oh you always know just what I want to hear"
"Always" Haz says with a wink as he starts to walk away back toward the entrance
"So Katy, how are you really. You've had a lot of life changes happen recently and I don't think you've had the time to fully process them."
"Truthfully, I think I am doing better than how others would be in my situation." I say staring straight ahead and not looking at her
" I would be lying if I said it was easy, but I think i'm doing just fine""Oh Katy, I know you too well to know that on the inside you're worried, anxious, and scared. For the future, for what you just don't know, for the things you can't fix, and for everything in between"
"But that's the thing, I've just come to peace with the fact, I can't control the fact I have cancer. I can't write how this story is going to end. Either it end with me ringing a bell or with bells being played at my funeral, It's entirely out of my hands and there's nothing I can say or do to change it"
"Wow" ashlyn says with a little tear in her eye
"I don't think i've considered an alternate ending except one of you ringing that damn bell""Well" I say
"Maybe you need to" I say turning over to look at her
"I don't want to get too cynical, but I also am a doctor""Yes a doctor who stares at mouths for a living"
"Still went to med school"
"All i'm saying is cancer is sometimes the winner and I need you to realize that. Of course I am going to fight like hell, because I don't think my story is even close to over yet. But it there is a harsh reality in this situation"Ashlyn just sighs through the tears nodding at what I said, because I don't think she was ready or expecting this talk tonight. There's just something that gives me a bad feeling about my cancer.
"How about we head back up stairs and relax" (k)
Ashlyn just nods and starts getting up. Still sniffling.
Sorry it's a little short, only about 600 words, I was mostly focusing on getting y'all some content
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