Undeniably Fated

Chapter 17

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Chapter 17

“I will not be riding home with you guys; I have a date with Dean.” Max excitedly stated. We are now in front of our lockers putting away our heavy books inside before going home.

“Me too, Xander’s gonna meet me up outside.” I faked the enthusiasm with my face and voice, but in truth I was dreading every second of it, I’m afraid on what’s waiting for me outside, not of Xander but what he wants to talk about.

Last night after I read his message, another one came, saying that he will meet me today at the school parking lot when the classes ended. I tried to call him after reading his text but he turned off his phone. I was awake all night long, I fell asleep at the crack of dawn but in a few minutes time my alarm shoots up and woke me. So I was probably looking like zombie the whole day.

“Sam, do you want me to wait up for you?” I looked up at Lana and was startled to see how sad her eyes look like. My heart starts beating double, does she know something?

“No, I’ll be fine. Xander will probably bring his car with him.” I dismissively said and waved them off goodbye. I started to walk outside of the school in the slowest pace I can master. The only thing I can hear is the beating of my heart.

I was trying to convince myself that it was probably nothing, just Xander being Xander, wanting to surprise me with something. But at the back of my mind was the lingering thought that something not good will happen. I just want to block all my thoughts but it was impossible, and I think my lack of sleep didn’t help either.

I tightly gripped my bag as I stepped out of the school building, my eyes automatically landed on my mate, who was leaning on the hood of his car. I know he knows that I was walking my way to him but he didn’t look my way, he was just there staring at nothing. He looks like shit, just like me. There were bags under his eyes.

I tentatively hold his hand when I reach him; a small smile was drawn in my face when he didn’t resist my touch. But it was all gone when I looked at him; his face was masked with hurt, as if my touch is paining him too much.

“Xander, what’s wrong?” I asked as I put away my hand from him.

“Let’s not talk here.” He then turned away from me and entered his car, and I followed his action and went to his car passenger seat.

It was a silent ride; the tension inside the car was so thick that it was suffocating me, making me hard to breathe. I don’t know what to think, maybe it was about Maria, or worst Dad, oh God please not that.

Xander parked his car on an empty lot not far away from school, and then I knew that we will have this talk inside his car. The silence continued to torture me; I swallowed all my fear and turned my head to look at my mate. He was still holding on the stirring wheel, no emotion was seen on his face.

“We need to end this.” He finally spoke, but he didn’t look at me.

“Yes, we really need to end this nonsense and tell me what this is all about ‘cause it’s starting to creep me out.” I nervously stated without turning away my gaze from him, I was waiting for a reaction or emotion to show on his face.

“No Samantha, let’s end this thing between us. I want to break up with you.” I’m slowly inhaling and exhaling, counting slowly to calm myself down.

“Why?” I forced out my mouth to ask.

“I feel that this is all wrong, this mate thing feels so wrong.” I didn’t say anything; I was letting his words engulf me. “Before I shifted I was perfectly happy with Sarah, but it all changed after that. I was all about you. It was as if I don’t have control with what I’m feeling. My brain is telling me I’m happy with you ‘cause you’re my mate. And it’s just so wrong because that person is not me anymore.” He paused and took a large intake of air. “I want my old life back Samantha.”

“No.” My eyes were now blurry from unshed tears. “You cannot just break up with me Xander, we’re mates, and we are supposed to be together. Fate wants us to be together.” Tears were now flowing through my cheeks, but I don’t care anymore, I was aching all over.

“Please, Samantha. Don’t make it harder than it is.” I was shaking my head, my hand on my mouth stopping those sobs from escaping.

“No, we are not breaking up.” I forced out with my shaky voice.

“Please, I don’t want to do it.” I look at him daring him to even say the words. For the first time today he looked at me straight in my eyes.

“I’m rejecting you as my mate Samantha Hale.”

I was trembling, his words echoing inside my head. I pushed open the car door, not wanting to be anywhere near him. I was rejected. I don’t have my mate anymore. I don’t have my other half.

“Let me drive you home, Sammie.” He was out of his car looking at me, but I couldn’t look at his eyes, the eyes of the only man I love.

“Don’t call me that!” I hugged myself and started to walk off, not really knowing where to go.

I was a fool to believe in happy ever after. I was pathetic to think that those things he made me feel were true. Now what, I end up crying and more hurt than before.

I wanted to scream, to shout that I don’t deserve all this. I haven’t done anything wrong to deserve this. I was a good daughter, a trustful friend and a loving mate.

“Stop it.” He was following me through the forest in wolf form. Did he think that I’m a fool to not notice him, is he deliberately hurting me? He’s just making this harder for me.

“I’m letting you go, Xander.” It was a pain to even speak his name. “Please also let me go.” I continued walking when I heard his paws walking away from me.

I reached home without even realizing it. I was thankful that I didn’t see anybody on my way, and when I entered the house, nobody’s in the living room to ask me questions. I went straight to my bedroom, planning to cry my eyes out, but I guess I’m running out of luck today. There at my bed sitting was Lana.

“You knew this was coming, right?” I asked as I went to the seat beside my window.

“I’m sorry.”

“You’re sorry? Don’t give me that crap Lana, you knew, you could have told me. You could have at least saved me from the humiliation of breaking down in front of him!” She didn’t even flinch, as if she was expecting it, as she was there to take away some of my pain. But no, it just hurts more that she didn’t tell me.

“I tried to talk him out of it, but he wouldn’t listen.” Lana tried to explain, but I don’t want to hear any of it. I’m feeling too much pain that I don’t know if I can handle anymore.

“Lana, no. I don’t wanna hear any of it.” I felt her rather than see, looming in front of me. “Just leave me alone for now.” But she didn’t budge.

“I’ll be fine Lana, I will be.”

LIE.

I heard her footsteps walking away from me. Lana knew what I said was a lie, that was the reason why she walked out, I know. She knew that I will not tell her what I truly feel if she’ll stay.

The stab I felt when I knew that Xander was my mate doesn’t compare to what I’m feeling right now. I felt like someone ripped off my heart and stomped it so that it was now breaking into a million pieces. I was like that the whole afternoon, looking outside the window. I fell asleep when the sun has set.

I felt someone lift me up from my chair and tucked me into bed. As I opened my eyes I saw Justin looking at me with pure sadness in his eyes. I gripped his arms, my eyes pleading.

“Make him leave.” Yes he was there I could feel him, outside my bedroom door.