Bungou Stray Dogs Oneshots

Chuuya - Will I Ever?

"If I can't be close to you, I'll settle with the ghost of you"

One day

One day, will I ever receive love from him? is that ever possible?

We've grew up together, trained together, finished missions together, heck, we were even there for each other on the lowest moments of our insufferable life.

Yet once, he never looked at me the way my childish dreams ever wanted him to.

He was always there, wondering who he was, what he was, how to comply to the mafia's orders or how to even get revenge on that stupid Dazai who left us.

Alas, I can't blame him for that can't I? He's just another being with personal interests.

I wasn't this selfish nor do I ever wished this hard for his attention. I was calm, composed, I was contented with what the world could give me with my wants.

I was contented yeah, until that very one crucial, painstaking, damn curse of a thing.

I woke up to another painstaking day, another day of reminding me of the things that are ought to never exist and end soon.

As I walk towards the hallways in the headquarters, there I saw him.

Nakahara Chuuya

All in his short and mighty glory, with his usual attire and that fedora that he claims "adds more toughness in him". In to which I never fail to mock him so.

I like him yeah, but does that mean I go all swoony and act all interested in him? Absolutely not, if I were to think about even reacting to him in all admiring ways then that would just mean I'm dying.

But I'm not dying right? So out of the box you go

"What took you so long? Just a few more my feet would've already hurt"

"I'm not late you were simply early asshole"

"Whatever miss punctual, let's just get the boss's orders over with"

If there were one thing where he would absolutely see me as a person or even as a friend outside work is only in small banters like these, and in these small banters I felt the joy even amidst our spiking blood pressures because of the one similarity we have which is our raging pride and small patience.

And still you find me contented even in the bare minimum, aren't I an idiot.

"A base infiltration?"

"Yes, as a matter of fact, a big one in fact"

Great, just great, just when I was so depressed with my day and thought that I can shoot a few guys and call myself a day.

But now we were assigned a mission to shoot guys, but strategically.

You know what that means? Using our brain