My two husbands

Chapter 5

I got my answer. I got what I was looking for and now I don't know what to feel. There are so many thoughts going through my mind right now. Jay came home a few hours ago just as I had finished putting everything back in place and I couldn't help the cold shiver that ran down my spine when he leaned in to kiss me.

However in order to avoid alarming him that I had found out something I quickly reciprocated and made up a lie about being sick and laying in bed all day saying I had only come down for a snack and was going to head back.

This had been a routine in our marriage so Jay found it completely normal and dismissed me saying he'd make dinner and call me down when it's done.

Less than thirty minutes later we were both seated at the dining silently eating out dinner. Jay kept glancing worriedly at me thinking I was sick seeing as I wasn't my talkative self.

But could you blame me?

After what I discovered today I was terrified. What if I speak and I suddenly say the wrong thing,how far would Jay go to cover this up?How dangerous was Jay?Is my idea of love a lie?

"Love, are you feeling unwell?"he asks suddenly.
"No. Why?"
"You've been oddly silent. What's going on?"

I think for a minute. If Jay is really as dangerous as I'm thinking I'll have to think of a way to get out of here and for that to happen I have to use his love for me as a weakness. So,as innocently as possible,I answer, "Nothing's wrong. " I whisper trying as much as possible to sound sad and pathetic.

"Hey,look at me" and I did, gazing into his worried eyes I couldn't help but wonder how I never saw everything wrong with this man.

"You can tell me anything." he said softly.
"I know. I just don't want you to be mad at me again. " I couldn't believe my acting skills,even I was surprised at how heartbroken I sounded.

"I won't just tell me what you want and I'll do it for you. "
"Really?You promise?"
"I promise. "
"Well I was thinking maybe you and I can start going on walks around this area. For the past three years all I've known is this house with nobody else here and nothing to entertain me. It's very draining physically, emotionally and mentally. But I know that you don't like me going out so it's still fine if you say no I'll not object. "

I said sadly as a lone tear slide down my cheek. Part of that was true and I took that chance to release my pent up emotions over the years. Jay looked at me with a conflicted look and I almost thought he was actually going to say no.

He however released a long sigh and slowly nodded. He actually agreed.
Now laying by his side in bed I couldn't help but be disgusted. I glanced to my left at his sleeping form and I don't know the man beside me. I'm in the middle of nowhere and I can't really call for help.

Where would I say I am and what exactly would I even use? If my hunch is right,Jay has tapped my phone even after knowing he's the only person I ever call seeing as I know no one else. Thinking of all of this my head starts pounding when I recall something.

According to what I read I was our car crashed on the California Mountains route I can't really tell exactly where but that is the only information I can hold on to. I pull at my hair in frustration I have to remember. My life was at stake yet my mind was still blank.

How did I end up in this man's hands? Then came the question I had been pushing out of my mind dreading the possible answer.

Will I ever get my life back?