Fat Girl In A Little Coat 2

Part 8

As we sat down and wait for the doctor to call out my name. I would love to be a mother. Billy could tell that I was nervous, taking my hand. "It's okay."

"A lot of things are happening in my brain."

Our hands went on his lap. "Well whatever happens I'm going to be right behind you."

Negative things pop into my head. But I had pushed them down. "It's going to be something."

"It will be. Also it's going to be a positive outcome. For both of us." I want to yank my hand away. But they called for me.

They had Billy await out there until I was done. After that he comes in. We waited for a good amount of time. Then the doctor came in. "Congratulations mommy and I'm assuming daddy?" Billy nods. "You are three weeks pregnant."

Three weeks... Might explain for most moody things.  Wait... I'm a mother... I'm a mother. Fuck! Yes! What? Wait... Shit... What if my dad... Ugh. Then he asked me questions. If I was doing okay. Do I need to refer to anyone. Billy told him that that we didn't live here and that we live in California.

Leaving we went back to his hotel. For him to change. I sat on the bed as he was changing. Coming out without no shirt, as he scrunched up his shirt. His bag was on the edge of bed. Billy took another shirt out.

"Three weeks, that's exciting."

"It is." We both don't know what to really say to each other.If we talk about anything else we would fight. "I went to see a lawyer."

"Steve was telling me about that. How did it go?"

"Alright I guess. He's like Pipi age almost. It was strange talking to him. Like what else can go wrong?" Well many things can go wrong. So many things.

"Why was it strange?" Putting on his shirt as he sat next to me.

"I haven't talk about what happened to me in a long time. Moving away was the best. Now? Now they want to see if this can go back to trail?" Shaking my head. "Then finding out that I'm pregnant."

"Yeah I guess we haven't talked about it in a long time." I can tell that he wanted to comfort me. But he kept to himself. "I'm here for whatever you want me to do. Be the punching bag, coffee runner, holding your hair. Whatever you need."

"What I really want... Is to cry and for right now I can't."

"I could punch you.." He whispered as he pumped my shoulder. I know he is kidding. I sorta smiled. He did too. "I can tell you this that I am hungry and I'm sure that you and the baby are. You want to go grab a bit to eat?"

"Sure." But nothing sounded good. "But nothing sounds good."

"I'm sure there will be something if not. Then I would love to have company. If you don't mind."

I don't. Shaking my head no. Billy drove to a shack. Looking at the menu I guess a shake would be okay. Ordering Billy ordered what he wanted and then I did.

"How was your flight?"

"It felt like so long but you know it was short. I didn't sleep well the night before and while I was on the plane." Taking a drink from a straw.

"Why couldn't you sleep?"

"Eh. I don't care for flying as much as I thought I might. And nervous that you would just push me away."

"Believe me I wanted to. But Steve said more support the better."

Billy nods as he looked at his cup of water. "I would never cheat on you. I just want you to know that. I couldn't. You saved me from a living nightmare. I wouldn't dream putting you through another one."

"Then why aren't you going to school Billy. I get it that you are now going. But why couldn't you tell me that you were taking a break?" Okay fine I'm going to give you the benefit of the doubt.

"Cause..." Whatever he was hiding he wasn't sure on how I was going to react.

"Cause why Billy? You know what you mean to me and I would had support you, even if I didn't like it. At least I would had been involved."

"Cause it complicated."

I sighed as he still wouldn't look at me. "Alright. If your not cheating, then what is it? Going to a bar? Stressed that you have to have another place to go too? What?"

"It's not that you wouldn't understand T. It's that I don't know if I understand it. Believe me if I know how to explain it, I would had the moment that I found out."

I tilt my head as I listened to him. Okay I'm starting to believe that he isn't cheating. Heart don't fail me now! "Okay... Remember when I was having a really bad panic attack and we had to play a guessing game?" Billy nods. "Okay... The we can play hot or cold. If I don't get with in three guesses then we will drop it until we get home." I told his hand. "Just because this trip is about me. Doesn't mean that I don't want to know what going on, cause I do, Billy." He didn't look happy about that. Knowing that I could help he agreed.

Our food came out. "Hmmm. Three guesses. Okay so it wouldn't be about school. So I can check that off." Billy nods. "Or work." Continues to nod. "Hmm. History?" Sorta nods. "About family?"

"Hot."

"Your dad?"

"Cold." He was cold about that.

"Well my guesses are all out. But is it about your mom?" Billy nods. "Okay." Knowing it was about his mom kinda made me feel a little better. "When you do want to talk about it Billy. I'm always willing to listen."

"I know that you are." We went back to the hotel. I did stay with him for a couple more hours. I am still mad at him for not telling me. I have completely understand why.