Fat Girl In A Little Coat 2

Part 41

My new time to wake up is 3 am, I had stopped for awhile waking up at that time, but for the last few days that's what time I'm waking up too. I couldn't do much anyways my butt is mostly healed and I could sit for an hour or more.

Billy is out like a light. He got himself high to many finals that he had to take, then work. I want to try to get high. I mean it's one time right? Going back to the bedroom, Billy still had the weed in his hand. I rolled my eyes, as I grabbed it out of his hand. He shouted coming from out of his dream. He looked angry and then confused... Looking at my hand that had his weed.

"What are you doing with that? Please tell me that you were going to put it out." Sweat came down from his face.

I stuttered.. "ummm uh. No." He tilted his head. "I wanted to try."

His smile appeared as he took my wrist to pull me into bed. "Sorry T. You are allergic to this crap. Do you think I'm a going to allow you to do this?"

"Cigarette. I'm allergic to cigarettes. Two different things Billy." I gave the weed back to him.

"No, at least to my knowledge. I really don't think that you should be doing weed."

"Not even once to please you?" I could tell that he was debating. Then ending up shaking his head no. "Alright I won't." He had a nightmare, if he doesn't want to talk about it I won't bug him. "What was your nightmare about?" Shaking his head as he lit up his weed again away from me. "Okay." Going to the other side of the bed. Pulling the covers on top of me. About three to five puffs, Billy was done. He made sure that it was out and then came into bed.

"Will you hold me?" Hopping that I wouldn't say no. Or make fun of him.

"Of course."

"Stupid of me to ask, but this doesn't make me look weak right."

"No...a man deserves his cuddles too. Did you dream that someone made fun of you about that?"

"No. I had a dream a horrible dream that I'll never ever do. If I have too they'll take me in too.." My head tilted. "I had a dream that I had to put you away. Please don't get mad."

For real? Is that what you want to do? So you can be with Heather- "I'm sorry Billy that you dreamed that." My words over took my brain. "It was just a dream it will never happen."

Head tucked into my chest. "I know. It's just scary for me cause I don't ever want to lose you."

You know I should tell him. "Heather called last night..well yesterday." I didn't tell him that I lied to her about him being gone.

"Oh." His head lifted up. "What did Heather want?"

"She asked for you, then she asked how I was and how we were doing. Which I would never ask someone that last part." He would never lift up his head unless if it's important.

"Right. I better call her back in the morning."

"I'm glad the two of you are friends." Haha. Right. "Friends."

"I wouldn't really says friends."

"Billy, you talk to her a lot. You tell her things. That is what you do with a friend." Or else I'm in denial.

"I guess." Placing his head back down..Snuggling in close to me. I gently rub Ed his back as he always rubbed mine. Something is going on here and I don't want any part of it.

Sun is so damn bright as the curtains was being pulled up by Billy. Rubbing my eyes as Billy sat on the edge of the bed. "Come on, let's go out for breakfast."

I sat up and I'm in a grumpy mood. "Are you for real.... I had been woken up four times last night three from you and one from the baby. No I want to stay in bed." Taking my pillow and covering up my face.

With a sigh. "I'll let you pick out the place we eat and what you get." He gently taps me.

I threw the pillow. "Tell me what the nightmares was really about. And I'll go."

"T, I don't remember them."

"Then I'm not going." Crossing my arms.

"You are so stubborn, I hope our child isn't as stubborn as you." Kissing the top of my head as he went to the bathroom. "But you are going when there is food."

I could feel what I think was the baby, moving around a bit. I moaned. "Fine." Putting on some leggings and a okay tank top.

Billy came out with a smile. "While you are finishing getting ready. I'll call Heather."

Jealous.... Am I really that jealous of her? Yes and no. Yes I wish he talks to me like he does with her. No because I have him at the end of the day. I nod as I headed into the bathroom.

I was finished, I heard him somewhat laughing as he was in the phone with her. Maybe I should just stay in bed.... and not go.

Why so wishy-washy? I ask myself. Hell I ask myself all the damn time. Sitting on the bed. I lie back down on top of the covers. Closing my eyes. The ocean sound in my ears.

"Hey." Not shouting but it was a little loud. I jumped. "Sorry. I didn't mean to make you jump. I came back here wondering why it was taking you so long." He leans on the door. "You exhausted yourself that fast eh?"

"I got dizzy so I thought of the ocean and I was about to sleep." I sat up rubbing my eyes.

"I can order take out if you want."

I shook my head no. "You woke me up for a reason." With a tried smile I got up from the bed.

"Tomorrow is doctor's appointment right?"
I nod. "What time again?"

"3:30, but you'll be at work." I put on my favorite sweater that was my mom's.

"I can try to be out."

"No. You already to much time off of work and it's fine. You hear all the adventures the baby had when you get home."

"Sure." He didn't sound to pleased about that.

"Billy, please don't be mad I do want to you be with us. Every time when I got ill, you stayed home with me. And I love that." Taking his hand and placing on my belly. "I promise it's going to be fine if you miss some appointments. That doesn't make you a bad parent. The important part is that you are here at the end of the day, loving our baby."

That smile of his appeared. "Alright." His thumb rubbed the lower part of my belly. "You are growing so that's good."

I chuckled. I pushed him away gently. "Hush. Soon I'll be big as a whale. Then we'll be talking big."

Coming from behind me his arms wrapped around me, as his chin placed on my shoulder. "No not a whale my gal."

"Then what?"

"A woman that can handle all my shit that I'm thankful for." Kissed my shoulder blade.

"That's all." I smiled.

"No. We could be here for hours... But me and the baby are hungry."

At the dine in we at a booth. I brought up Heather. "How's Heather?"

"Okay.. but the strangest thing is that she thought that you told her that I was gone for the a week or something like that."

"I told her that you were gone for the day cause of work." I put some cream into my coffee. Not looking at him and then when I did I smiled.

"So a misunderstanding." Billy took a sip of water. "I lied to you about not remembering my nightmare."

"Oh?"

"Yeah... I was dreaming that we were fighting about our child and then Heather as well. And then all of a sudden we hit something and I was passed out. We got out safely but our baby....our baby didn't." Crossing his arms to his chest. "I killed out baby."

I reached to place a handing on his arm. "I'm glad that you told me. I'm sorry about that. It's horrible. I wouldn't blame you even if that did happen."

"I would."

"Billy it's just a dream. So hopefully that won't happen."

We order food and hope that our day will continue to be good.