Fat Girl In A Little Coat 2

Part 22

I took another day off as I was having horrible cramps. I went to the doctors as Billy stayed with me. "Take my hand if you want to squeeze on it." Billy offered. Shaking my head no thinking that I'm going to lose the baby. Hoping that I wouldn't.

Waiting in the waiting room as the doctor comes in. "On the scale one to ten how much pain are you in?"

"Eight." I squeezing my pants.

Laying me back down as she pushed gently. "Alright, you haven't peed right?" I nod. "Good. Then we can be on our way to see what can be wrong." She puts some cold lube on. Pressing down on me as it hurts a little bit more. Taking some photos as she wrote down. "Okay... I see. Alright. Victoria. The baby is fine. You have a cyst on a bubble. That is something that we can help. Here's the thing. Since you are not that far, I'm not sure if the drug will hurt the baby or not."

"So what? I sit here in pain until it pops on its own and hope I don't have a miscarriage?" I didn't mean to snap but how could I not I'm in pain.

"We can give you something to make it pop faster. But we can't confirm if it will harm the baby or not." The doctor said calming.

"What can I do to make it pop on its own? Heating pad, bath?"

"They can help but not overly hot." Obviously!

I nod as I know she was trying to help. "Fine. I can do that."

Billy helps me up. "Why don't you take the medicine?"

"And might lose the baby or cause it harm that we might not know anything about. Think Billy, please think." I get it he doesn't want to see me in pain, but how dumb can you be! Not know if the medicine could hamr the baby and you want me to take it? Like for real?

Heading to his car he's mad because I got after him. Rightfully so! I have every right to be mad at him. He took off so fast after we both got into the car. "You made me look like I was a dumb person and you know how I feel about that." Gritting through his teeth.

"Think about it Billy. You want me to take something that would harm my baby?"

"We don't know that it might. It wouldn't hurt."

"How about this Billy, when you get knocked up and you are having a baby and the same thing happens to you. Then you can do whatever you want." I moan out of pain.

"You wouldn't be in pain now, if you just did it." Angry sigh he put out his hand. "Just squeeze my hand."

Pushing his hand away. "I don't need your hand Billy." I do some deep breathing like they teach you in birthing class.

Shaking his head as he hits the wheel. "Why are you so go damn stubborn, and let people help when people offer it to you."

I ignored him as he drives us to the store where Joyce worked. I walked around in pain as Billy follows. Joyce saw me enter as I went to go get a heating pad. "Sweetheart what's wrong."

"Cyst causing me to cramp." I stayed clam with her.

"Oh sweetheart. Deep breathing like I taught you and try. I know you hate it when people say this try to relax." Patting my hand as we headed to the check out line.

I nodded as I paid for it. Walking out Billy drove us home. The heating pad starts to warm up as I could feel like I could breathe. Billy being pissed off is outside smoking letting some steam out before he came back in. I could finally relax. My bedroom door opens I can still feel the anger from Billy but he's calmed down a bit, since smoking. My back facing him. Not saying anything. Which is fine because we won't have to fight or say anything to each other.

Moaning in pain, Billy couldn't take it. So he picked up some clothing and went to Steve's old room. Its for the best.

After two hours it had went away. I took four pills and I went to sleep. Why didn't I think about this ages ago. Slowly my door creeps open, Billy checking up on me. I don't move slowly breathing. Climbing back into the bed I felt his hand jerking me. I woke up as I sat up.

"Has it stopped?"

"For now. I hope that it stays away." I turned the pad on lower.

"Me too." He chuckled. "Cause your a pian in the ass." I smiled.

"You can be one too when you are in pain."

"I'm still mad at you. I just wanted to check up on you." Billy got up.

For real? I covered myself up as Billy walked out the door. When the door shut I sat up and sorta laughed. He'll be sleeping in Steve's bed. The guy that he hates, well hate is a strong word. Dislike so badly. Covering up my mouth I couldn't help it. Hopping that Billy doesn't come back in being "tuff" and what not.

Controlling myself I went to the bathroom. Alone. Like what Aston said I'll forever be. Is alone. Heavy set who is about to have a baby, maybe I shouldn't. Shit. Flushing the toilet, heading back into my bedroom. I sat on the floor. Pulling the pillow and blanket down. Sitting in front of the closet. Feeling the cold eyes from that closet. I only talk in whispers cause I dare not wake up Billy.

"What happened? Why is that your eyes have always been so cold to me? You told me that I would end up alone because the way that I am. Here, listen to this. I'm pregnant, I have a well.... A boyfriend that I love dearly. When I was in the bathroom I looked at myself long and hard. I shouldn't be having this baby." My head turn to the main door to make sure that Billy wouldn't come in. "I should be dead like her, right?" My knees come up to my chest. "Maybe... I should just end it all. Let Billy go free. Push them all away. Run away from everything and end it where someone can't find me. People already think that I'm nuts, crazy. And they are right I am. I don't want to be alone. But I am. I'm the only one who went through this pain." Laying on the floor closing my eyes. "God should had taken me not my mother."