Fat Girl In A Little Coat 2

Part 18

Back at home sitting on the bed as Billy comes back up with some snacks that I asked him to get. It was around eight. Baby gotta eat. "Alright I grab what I could." Billy hands me the bag.

"Thank you. I'm sorry for sending you out."

Kissing the top of my head. "The baby got to eat." Taking off his coat. "So is this what I'm looking forward to the future, making all these types of runs?"

"Maybe." I smirked as I looked into the bag. Ice cream and graham crackers. I dunno that is what the baby is craving.

Billy sat right back down next to me as I opened up the crackers. Tucking the hair behind me ear. "I love you. I hope you know that."

With him saying it made me think about earlier today. "Billy I love you too. I want you to know that I haven't felt like that in a very long time. And with the baby coming along. My main doctor know that about my history. That I'm sure when she gets the notice that she will have things lined up for me." Sticking my spoon that Billy had gotten for me into the ice cream.

As he had gotten off the bed already he turns his head back. Speaking with me with a little happiness. "Good. I heard that postpartum depression is no joke for a woman." Rubbing his nose just before lighting his cigarette. "Sorry. That's just what I read and-"

"You want to be the best you can be for the three of us." I nod my head. "I get it. You are our hero." Putting ice cream on my graham cracker.

"Yeah.... Doing my best." Knowing that he is hiding about his mom. I can sorta understand the worries that he has. Not telling me, concerns me. Something about his mother that he is hiding, is a little worrisome.

"That's all I can asked for." I continue to eat the ice cream. Billy smirked as he stabbed his bud in the holder that he would put his cigarette in. He comes back down and sat with me. As he flipped through a Cameo magazine. With hot babes, I rolled my eyes. I kept to myself.

"Mayflower, you are way much stunning then they are."

"I didn't say anything."

"Honey, I could feel the energy that you were giving. I wouldn't leave you for them. Not even when you are about to have my baby." Flipping to the next page. "The only reason why I got this is because I have to say goodbye to my Cameo."

"No one said that you had too." I finished my ice cream.

"We can't afford another car. So yes I do."

I turn my head to face him. "Billy. I love that you want to think ahead. Just don't think to far ahead. Cause what if I miscarry, or it's a stillborn. I just don't want you to do something."

"Why are you acting so negative? Babe don't think like like that. This is our baby and it's strong just like you and me." His hand placed on my belly as he was still looking at the magazine.

I didn't mean it to be like that. "I didn't mean to be negative. I just mean.." Billy didn't want to listen to it.

"I know. We aren't promise anything in this life. After the hell that we went through, I... I didn't know I want to have kids, hell still don't babe. But I feel like this kid is different." Closing the magazine as he turn to his side the faced me. "Please try to think positive.. I don't know what else to do other then making runs for you. Please let me do this."

I couldn't fight on him this anymore. "Okay. You win. You win." Laying back down, turning to face him as well. "Are you sure that you want to sell your other baby?"

"Do I want too? No. But will it be safer if I did this for our baby? Yes." Moving closer to me. "I love you, so much."

"I love you too." My hand placed on top of his hand. "I'm proud of you."

"Why?" He was concerned.

"Because you are ready for this change. I was for sure thinking that you were going to leave." I softly smiled at him.

"Leave you?" He chuckled. "Mayflower... For real? Hell no. I just can't. Nor do I want too. You see me for me. Not some badass that if you take me home and I'll screw you and then be so sweet to your parents." I laughed like belly laughed. He chuckle. "What?"

"You are that person Billy. Oh my gosh you just tried to fuck me in the kitchen."

He blushed a little. "No.. I mean when we were younger."

"You still were like that. You tried to tease me under the table when you stayed for dinner... And... And.... Pipi had no clue and if he did... He did good job acting. That's when you wanted to try to work out."

Still blushing.. "To only be with you. And." His head was touching mine. "For the real truth is about that, for working out was to see your breast go up and down."

I snorted. "See. You haven't changed. And I wouldn't want it any other way."

Kissing my lips. "Well I now know how to easily get you into our bedroom." Again kissing my lips.

"True, but good luck while I'm pregnant. I heard the hormones sucks when it comes to sex." I so pulled that out of my ass.

He belly laughed as well. "Oh whatever." His planted a kiss on my head. "As much as I would love to fool around with. But we have to go to sleep."

"No fun!" I winked. Snuggling up close we both are at peace. It's nice for a change. I can't help but think about Aston. Trying to hurt me or my baby.

It wasn't restful night for me. Billy was making coffee after I was done brushing my teeth after throwing up. Bringing me coffee he sat it down on the counter sink. "You tossed and turned last night. Want to talk about it?" Cigarette was in his mouth.

"No." I spat in the sink. "Just want to have this all done and over with."

Inhaling smoke as he blew it out in the room. Waving his hand to move the smoke. "That was dumb of me. Anyways. I do too. I want us back at home."

I changed the subject. "You never told me how was lunch with Max."

"Because I had to reschedule it because of the court."

"You can do it today. I have Steve and Laurie including Hopper." Taking my coffee as he walked over to the window shaking his head.

"That can wait T. You are more important then some dumb dinner."

"Stop it. I'm sure Max would like to know how you are doing. Besides do it for our baby."

"Oh no." Shaking his head. "You are not bringing our child into this."

"Max is good be to be in our lives no matter what you do or say Billy." Drinking the strongest coffee in the world, it felt like.

"I'm worried about you then going to some dinner!" Billy was starting to get upset with me.

"When was the last thing you did something for yourself? Why don't you want to talk to her?"

"I don't know what to say to her! Along with I don't care about her anymore."

"BILLY!"

"What?!? You want me to lie to that bird shit?"

"No! But don't you want clouser?"

"About what?"

"Like where Neil went or about anything?"

"No. There is no clouser, don't care to know where my father is."

I sat on the bed with my legs crossed. "You said that you would. I'll be fine, the baby will be fine. Tell me the real reason why you won't see her?"

Billy sighed as he wasn't going to give it up. "There is no real reason Victoria. I can change my mind if I want too."

"The two of you can make better memories then the ones that you have set."

"What memories would I have with the shit brod if I wanted to restart hmm? Invite her while she dating that black kid? Fuck no."

"His name is Lucas. God why are you being so picky today? Did I like kick you or something?"

"Why the fuck can't you let it GO?" He walked out of the room as I fall back on the bed. Well with what peace we did have is gone, hopefully for a little while.