Fat Girl In A Little Coat 2

Part 31

I didn't sleep what so ever. Sitting up on the hard wood floor. Rubbing my eyes, new day. Hopefully today or tomorrow will be the last day of court. So all of this will be in the past and stay in the past.

I was moving around as I unlocked my door. Using the bathroom, then getting dressed I got a knock on my bathroom door. "We need to talk." Said Billy.

No we do not sir. Talk to your new girl.why the heck am I so angry? "Can we do that after I get home?" You are staying here.

"No we got plenty of time before court starts."

Hell. I'll be in hell for the next few hours and even more after that. "Fine, let me..." I could take another shower. There we go. "Take shower first and then we can talk."

"You took a shower last night."

"Yeah well I cleaned some more last night."

You can hear it in voice that he wasn't happy about it. "Whatever." He mumbles loudly.

I would had thought he was kick down the door. Thankfully no. I got into the shower. It really wasn't long. It was really just to get out whatever Billy had to say. I really don't want to hear it. That I was being mean to him. Yes I was but I wasn't that mean like he has.

I want to say that it's easier to blame it on him. It's my fault too. I really didn't have to be here. It was just a plus. I would had come anyways. To make sure that he's out away for good. But I'm the crazy one right?

Fucking great. Now I'm depressed. I cry again, I'm so over crying that I crying over it. Blowing out some steam, Billy knocks on the door. "You alright?"

"Yea. Hormones are all over the place." I put on my underwear and bra. "I should never thought it was a great idea to be pregnant." Blowing my nose in toilet paper. "I'll be out in five."

His head gently touched the door. "You're right. You shouldn't have. But you know what you did. You wanted to prove that, what comes from broken can be fixed. And I know a baby isn't going to fix us over a month or a year. We can heal from it. You and I."

Opening the door after Billy moved away from the door. "No."

Seeing me as Billy was sitting on the bed. "What do you mean no?"

"These hormones, I can't do it anymore. I'm driving everyone up the wall. I don't even notice myself. How can I be a mom when I never had one of my own." I sighed as I came to conclusion. "I'm getting abortion, alone with getting my uterus taken out. I should had that years ago."

Billy got off the bed really fast. "Dont be ridiculous!" Trying to find more words. "Sure, your driving me mad. It's okay. That what makes us an us!"

I just give up. I want to crawl in a whole and  die. "My mind is made up Billy. We aren't good enough to be parents. We get mad at each other for stupid things that normal couples don't get so upset about. Do you really want to raise a child to witness that? Cause I don't. A child should grow up with loving parents. Not people who barley know what they are doing." My arms wrap around my chest. "Now what is that you wanted to speak about?"

"My god you have gone insane Victoria!" Billy shouted. "That's it. Tonight you and I are leaving to go back home. Tough shit if court isn't over. I need to get you out of here."

"Billy I'm fine."

"Clearly your fucking not. Did you not just hear yourself? You want to kill our kid! Not just yours, OURS! I never heard you speak like this. Not even while we were in school." Trying to touch me I moved away. "See you won't let me touch you." Shaking his head. "I'm going to see how we can leave tonight."

"You kept telling people, you still don't know if you want to have a kid."

"Yes. But some abortion could hurt you and you think I would want that?"

"Billy make up your fucking mind." Tears rolls down my face. "First your worried that I might died for giving birth, now you think I might die if I get abortion." My hands cover up my face. "Can't have it both ways."

"We can't. It was a dream that I had, dreams are just dreams. Forget about what I was going to tell you. Just get your ass down stairs. Grab a toast and bacon. That should hold you over." He walked to the door. "Pick out tonight what you want out of this fucking room and then I'll tell your Pipi that the rest is trash." Spoke very harshly.

I washed my face as I felt numb, see what I mean? He just blew up. Billy could.... Never mind that. I did grab toast and bacon Billy and I rode in different cars. Heading in cameras all over journalist shouting out me. As Steve and Pipi along with Hopper, walking along side me. They even sat iny row. Billy sat behind me.

It was Aston turn to take the stand, again to plea himself once more. " I know what I did to my only child was wrong." I was so zoned out. "I have to live with that everyday of my life. You see before her mother died, she had gone really crazy, saying that she wanted to kill herself and the baby." He looked at the jury. "I always wanted a daughter, raise her like how my father raised me." Looking down. "My dear beloved wife, she has to go in a psychiatric ward as well." Smiling at me at least that what Steve told me. "One night I did something so dumb that I had a seance to get ahold of my late wife. I guess we didn't say goodbye to end it. I had suffer severely like something entered in my body. Next thing I know I'm here." Looking at his lawyer then the judge. "And I want to do right for my women in my life. My newly wife and daughter. Maybe my grandchild as well." Looking at me with a smile. I still hadn't looked at him or listened to him. Hopping that he would just shut up. "I had been baptized, and I feel refreshed. Like a new man. Who wanted to be there for his family."

Hahaha a family? Is that what you called it before? Steve took my hand and leaned over to me. "Why don't you and I leave to get some coffee hmm?" I nod, coffee sound good. We both get up to leave.

As I walked to the door I heard Aston saying.  "I love you Victoria. My beautiful girl." I walked out of the room so fast. I heard people just gasping and chattering. The doors had shut as I threw up in the trash bag.

Steve held my hair back. I didn't like it when people rubbed my back as I was puking. Steve took me to the bench, sitting down as he was getting me coffee. Then it was a hour long break. Coffee in hand that I didn't really drink. Steve doing his best to encourage me. "Sis you have to drink it. Even if you hate it."

"I don't think I can."

Billy didn't even sit by me, space.. space was needed with him. Steve never asked for help from Billy or anyone. "Two sips and I'll leave you alone." If that's what it will take. That's what I did. It was two big sips once it cooled down. "Thank you."

The verdict came in. Billy pulls me to the side. "We're leaving."

"The verdict is in Billy."

"And I don't care. We need to be out of here."

"Then leave Billy. Go home, if you don't want to be here."

"I'm not leaving without you."

"I'm staying that is final Billy like it or not." I went in, I don't care if he left to pack up his things or not. I need to hear this in person.

We all sat down when the judge came back in. Why do I have a feeling that they aren't going to find him guilty?

One juer stood up as they called out for guilty or not. Guilty for all, except for one. That means he can never get out. Billy was out I'm sure with Heather. I don't care. I just can't.