Fat Girl In A Little Coat 2

Part 21

When Billy left I waited for a few to get dressed. I took my meds like I always do. That when I got dressed. I called a taxi to come pick me up and take me over to the cemetery.

I took a bag with a book and a mile down the road is a library that I can take a bus back home. Or a taxi. After dropping me off, I looked for her grave. When I found it I smiled and looked down at my tummy. "Found her. Let's go say hi." I walked over and smiled. "Hi mom." I had some fake flowers in my bag and put it in the vase. "So many things to tell you. I'm sure you already know. But I'm still going to tell you anyways."

It was like talking to an old friend that I haven't seen in ages. I laughed, cried and even screamed a little. Thank goodness no one was around to hear that. "One more thing mom. I'm pregnant. Gosh, words I never thought I would say right?" I girned. "Billy, well I think he is okay with it. He wants to make changes, but that could mean anything right? If it's a girl mom, mind sprinkling some dust of you. So Pipi knows that you are watching. I know he loved you like his own. Apart of me make up stories that you would be proud of me and that if you were alive that you would take me away from Aston." I look at my watch. "I have to get going mom. I love you and miss you." I blew her a kiss goodbye and headed down to the library.

I picked out a good books and called for a taxi. Well they did. I waited, I got home in time, before anyone got home. Made myself some snacks. Watched some TV and read a few pages before falling asleep.

I heard myself awake, to a blanket on top of me and hearing Billy talking to someone else who is here. It was a woman's voice. Please let it be Joyce. Sadly no. As I snuck up closer. It was Heathers. Right.. I tip toed upstairs so they wouldn't hear me. Opening my door as I sighed. I started to go through my old things. Not caring about what was going on down stairs. Seeing a photo of my mother. I couldn't help but smile. That smile went away as I heard the door opening.

"There you are." Billy sounded happy and relieved.

"Was I missing?" I took out some old clothing.

"Well yes and no. I didn't know where you went too and found you up here." He looked down at his shoes and then back up at me. "Spring cleaning? Even though it isn't spring."

"No. I was just looking at my old clothing. Seeing if I want to take them back with me or to stay here."

"Right. Heather is down stairs and would love to see you." His thumb pointed out.

"As much as I would like to see her. I just don't want to see people today."

It didn't faze Billy cause I would tell him that a lot. "Alright. I'll just tell her that you aren't feeling well." He goes back out.

Shaking my head as I sat down on the floor. "What a mess."

I came back down to eat something if Heather was still there then fine. She wasn't, Billy was watching some MTV as he was doing some pushups. I made a small snack. I shouldn't be hungry but I am.

Billy must of heard me as he came into the kitchen. "Pipi called and said that he wouldn't wouldn't be home tonight cause of a poker game?" He guessed that last part.

"Oh Uncle Jim must be back into town for a bit." Uncle Jim our cuban uncle who is in the mafia. We didn't see him much while Steve and I grew up. He would only come into town for two reasons. One of he needed to run away and two, to see how I was doing.

"Who's uncle Jim and why haven't I met him?"

"He's Pipi best friend in the whole wide world. And the reason why you haven't met him is because he's usually on the run or he came into town to see me. One of the two." I got out some bread to have some peanut butter on toast.

Billy nods as he smiled. "Little one must be hungry again eh?"

"Yes." I put the bread into the toaster.

"Do you think one day I'll meet him?"

"No. It's best if you didn't. If for some odd reason you did. You must had done something badly or it's a funeral for someone that is important to him. Which other then me and Pipi that will be a fat chance." I leaned against the counter.

Billy nods. "I see." And he drops it as he should. "Want to go for a walk after you are done eating?"

"Sure." Maybe he'll change his mind later on. Because it's supposed to be hot, well not too hot.  Placing the peanut butter and the other bread jelly I put them together. Billy went back into the living room. I sighed as I sat down. Can't sit with me huh? What did I do? What I didn't want to see your precious Heather? A book was sitting on the table as I began to read it. It was a cook book that my grandma made from her parents before hand. I smiled as I could see her and Pipi cooking together. Billy comes back in as he sat down on the other side of me.

"I thought you were coming with me. Or else I would be here with you."

Yeah sure. "That's okay I was going through this cook book that my grandma made." I flipped to the next page.

Nodding as Billy leans over. "Anything that looks good?"

"I cannot read her hand writing." It was a sloppy cursive that I could never read.

Showing him he smirks. "I can see why. It's like a doctor wrote it."