* MIKES POV**
I keep trying to think of a way to tell El. I know im stalling. I shouldnt even be allowed to feel this way. I have to tell her.
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Around an hour later, I go into the basement. I see El sitting at a table, writing some sort of letter. She smiles up at me, but she seems upset. I quickly say " Is something wrong? I was going to talk to you about something, but if you're upset, it can wait." She shakes her head and says " Mike. I don't.. I don't love you." Im shocked by this, because yesterday she seemed obsessed with me. I say " El.. what?" She shakes her head and says " Mike, I am different. I cant love you as you want me to."
I feel curiosity pinch my tongue. I say " El.. what are you trying to say?" She looks at me for the first time since speaking and says " I know how you feel about Will. You love him" I stammer. I want to deny it. I say " What are you talking about?" She says " Mike. I know you feel the way about boys that people think youre supposed to feel about girls. And the way Im supposed to feel about boys.. I dont. I am different."
Does this mean.. is she also different? No. Cant be. Unless..
" El, what are you trying to say?" She looks down and says " The way im supposed to feel about boys, i feel that way about girls."
I cant believe it. I gasp. She looks at me sadly and I say " El, wait no- I accept you. Im.. different too".
El looks at me and instantly softens. She lets out a much- needed exhale. " I did not want to lie to you. Im sorry. But we are not in love. You love Will."
My face is burning and my muscles are sore. I feel myself tense up. I open my mouth to say something, but I cant dare myself to speak. I only nod solemnly.
El nods and says " Mike. Me and you.. friends?" " Yes", is the only world that comes out of my mouth. El pulls me into a sympathetic hug and tears streak down my face.
But this time, I dont feel bad. Because El is crying too. I am not alone.
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A/N: Hey! I know it's been a while since I've updated this book. But I think I finally know the direction I want to take it. I know this chapter was pretty short, but I'm quite sure the next chapter will be very.. intriguing, to say the least! I know there isnt many people reading this story but i AM going to continue it. Thank you for sticking around, if you are!
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