Will, everyday, at any moment in time, always ends up plotting ways to tell Mike the way he feels.
He is aware of the fact that Mike probably already knows, simply just because of the way they act around each other.
And he is also aware that Mike has feelings for him, because he just read the letters that Mike gave to him.
Even before he thought about actually reading the letters, he knew the general context of them.
He just didn't even begin to think about the fact that Mike has genuine feelings for him.
Just a few weeks ago, they weren't even talking. And maybe that's the reason why Will's scared to confront this entire situation at all.
There are so many questions in Will's mind, ones that he might not even want the answer to.
Will this affect mine and Mike's friendship?
And of course it will, but what Will really wants to know is this: if he and Mike get together and break up, will that be the last time they ever talk?
That's why Will knows that confrontation equals change, and there's never been a moment in time where he's felt completely okay with it.
He's learned to deal with it, but that doesn't mean he can just find it in himself to like it.
Maybe because Will's life seems like its always changing and differentiating is why Will is begging for something to stay the same.
He just finally wants something that's under his control.
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Mike knows that by now, Will has read the letters.
He doesn't know for certain, but he has a feeling because Will hasn't even tried to reach out to him in over two days.
Will is normally the type of person that's always tried to be in Mike's life, no matter what happens between them.
But Mike knows that this is completely different. And he is currently acknowledging the fact that he hasn't tried to reach out to Will either.
It's because he knows that if Will reaches out to him, Will at least wants to be in his life.
Mike is quite certain that Will has feelings for him, but he doesn't know all the factors that he craves to know.
All he wants is to know what Will thinks of him, in fact, it would probably cure any doubt he has about him and Will.
Mike has been feeling extremely lonely since he hasn't heard from Will, proving to him that Will has become his normal, a routine.
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Mike walks down the stairs and into his kitchen, praying his mom is absent.
She is, and Mike isn't surprised because of how late it is.
He looks at the clock over on the wall.
11:30p.m.
He shakes his head before walking over to his parents liquor cabinet and snatching a bottle of whatever is nearest.
Recently, Mike has discovered drinking as a coping mechanism. He tries not to do it often, but it's become a go-to in the past weeks.
Maybe Mike knows that if he tries to not think of Will, he will. So he becomes uncontrollable.
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For some reason, Will's somewhat shocked that he can't sleep. He hasn't been sleeping ever since he came to Hawkins, and he knows the reasons.
How is he supposed to sleep when all he can do is think? All he can do is wait for Mike, dream about him, and think of him, all the time.
Will walks over to his desk and grabs Mike's letters.
He lays his head on top of the stack and tears begin to rush out of his eyes.
He finds himself letting out every emotion that he thought had been let out, but now he knows that he never really releases anything.
As the tears fall down his cheeks, Will cries for everything he's done. Every mistake, every dumb decision, and every word unspoken.
He thinks of all of his and Mike's heartfelt conversations, and all of their laughter-filled moments.
He allows himself to grieve some sort of loss for Mike. He allows himself to grieve the person Mike once was to him.
Mike used to be his best friend, and although Will has always had feelings for Mike, he used to not care if Mike felt the same.
He used to be able to ignore it, to avoid everything. Now he's not able to look at Mike without wanting to blurt out his thoughts.
And he knows that, now, his and Mike's relationship is not the same.
And he doesn't think it ever can be.
It's not like this upsets him, but he just knows that after everything, they can't go back to the way things used to be.
Will sighs and grabs the mixtape Mike made for him, and he smiles, remembering the memories that follow it.
He walks over to his cassette player and puts in the tape, pressing play.
I Only Have Eyes For You by The Flamingos begins to play, and Will can almost feel himself tear up.
He remembers the night Mike gifted the tape to him, it was one of the happiest moments of his life.
The thought that Mike thought about Will enough to create something for him was almost beyond his beliefs.
Will lays on his floor and becomes lost in the beat of the music, swirling around the room.
He remembers a simpler time, when everything was actually unspoken. Now he knows that he has to speak about his feelings.
As he lays there, on the floor, thinking, he hears a light peck on his window.
Will jumps up in fright and walks over slowly to his window. He draws back the curtain to reveal Mike standing in his front yard.
Mike has a handful of pebbles, which apparently caused the pecking.
Will hurriedly opens his window and tries to quietly whisper-shout " What are you doing here?"
Will quietly runs downstairs and opens the front door. Mike stands there covered in water. Will hasn't even noticed it's been raining.
" Hi. I can't stop thinking about you, Will."
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A/N: OMG WE'RE NEARING THE ENDDDD!!! this is actually so exciting for me. after MONTHS of this fic and putting effort into it we're almost done with it!! again, i sorta have to make a part 2 to this chapter because i didn't want to make a super long chapter. anyways, thank you sm for reading, as always!! enjoy babes <3
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