Not just a script! OiSuga

Chapter 21

Sugawara's POV:

It's day four of Oikawa and I officially dating. I count each day to mark the occasions. Like 'day' one we ate cake and watched musicals on a projector. Day two we skipped school to spend all day with each other. Day three we do go into school but we're exchanging texts all day.
I count the days because when i want to think of something i can say 'It was day twenty-seven' or 'Yeah we did that in day thirty-four'.
And a little part of me worries one day i'll have to remember 'we broke up on day...'. Then i'll have to start again, i wouldn't want to but i know i wouldn't be able to help myself but wake up every day to think 'day one of Oikawa and i being broken up'.
I hate to think about it, i really do, but it's a worry i've always had. Before Oikawa and i were together, before he even found out i liked him. The moment i figured out my feelings i worried about the hypothetical situation where we'd finally be each others and that awful day would come. 
Now it's actually real, the fear has only doubled in size.

I hadn't realised i'd been staring off to space until a heavy pat on my back knocked me out of my trance. I look up to see Daichi, his hand on my back and smiling at me. I smile back because it was nice to see him. Daichi and i, along with Asahi, have been friends for a very long time. Friends before the void of emptiness ate everything i was able to feel inside. I could tell he knew something changed when it happened. But because it's been so long since i've been feeling like this, he doesn't seem to see an issue anymore. It kind of hurt to think about that. I hated not having that connection to him anymore.
"Hey." I say to him.

"Hey, i was calling you."

"You were?" I must've been too spaced out to even hear him. "Sorry, what's up?"

We were in the gym. Practice had finished but everyone stayed, chatting to one another, catching their breathes, taking a moment to relax. Everyone enjoyed each others company so it was easy to all stay behind a little longer.
Daichi shrugs his shoulders. It both scared me and made me happy that he came over without any conversation in mind. Happy because it shows he just wanted to spend time with me, but scared because i now don't have a script to follow.

"Asahi and i are going out apparently, you should come. It's been a while."

I hesitated with my answer. I wanted to say yes because i missed them. I missed Daichi, i missed Asahi, i missed going out every weekend with them doing nothing in particular, just hanging out. My heart ached just thinking about it. But I was going to be with Oikawa tonight... and it's going to make me feel shit going out with them after so long just to not be able to enjoy it...
My heart ached.... I could Feel it. I could feel my heart ache. "Apparently?" I answer instead, forcing a short laugh at the wording.

Daichi shrugged. "Well, he said i had to come with him or he'll egg my house so i didn't have a choice.."

I laugh. Just picturing Asahi egging Daichi's house made me practically erupt with laughter actually. I was laughing, Daichi joined in, and i could even see some teammates turning around to look at me. Because i laughed. I was laughing.

I stop.
I laughed.
I didn't tell myself to laugh. It wasn't on the script. There isn't a script. I laughed because i felt like it. Because i found it funny. I laughed because it was genuine. I was... happy.
Even though it could've just been a one time situation, i could cry. I could cry from happiness. Because i was proud, because i laughed.
No matter how many times i think it, it makes my brain jumble. I. Laughed.

"Yeah.." Daichi sighs but smiles at me. I smile back, i smile a little too much even though it was shaky. Because i didn't know how to control my face right now. I felt overwhelm. I Felt overwhelmed. From what just happened. To what's happening right now. "Anyway, you should really come."
I hesitated again. Oikawa... i need Oikawa right now. I need to tell him. I need to tell him i Laughed. Because i know no matter how proud i am of myself, Oikawa would be prouder. I can imagine him grin and pull me for a tight hug. I can imagine him whispering into my ear as we hugged telling me i did it. That i'm doing it.
"And you should invite Oikawa. It's been a while with him too." He must've read my mind.

I no longer had any reason to say no. I didn't want to say no. I nod my head eagerly. "Yes. Yes we'll come. It's a date." I grin and he chuckles.

"Hardly a date. Unless you invite Nishinoya and my imaginary boyfriend."

I laughed again. I was on a fucking role! "That's so sad Dai."

"Hey. We don't all have boyfriends you know. That being said, please don't rub yours and Oikawa's relationship in my face, have some sympathy."

After arranging a time and meeting place, people began to leave the gym. I left in a hurry as i wanted to get to Oikawa's as quickly as i could. I texted him to let him know i'm coming and that i have Big news.

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Just like everyday, Oikawa greets me with a wide grin as he opened the front door before i even knock. Unlike everyday, until four days ago, he kisses me on the forehead and greats me with, "Hey love."

I show a cheesy grin at him because i was left in an incredibly happy state and seeing my boyfriend is making me overjoyed. "Hey." I reply and let myself into the house.

"So, tell me the big news already!"
Since i sent him that message when i'd set of here, he has been none stop texting me asking what the news was. Impatient bastard. So of course it's the first thing he asks for when i walk in. I didn't mind though, because it's the first thing i want to tell him.
I tell him i laughed, i laughed because i felt like it. I tell him how happy i felt. I tell him how overwhelming it was but how great it was at the same time. I tell him i how proud i was. How proud i Am.
"Holy shit Koushi, that's... holy shit!" His face was a mixture of shock, excitement, and love. Pure love.

"I know. Holy fucking shit."

As i predicted, he brought me into a tight hug. A hug i didn't see ending any time short. His arms wrapped around my body so tightly you would think he's trying to stop me from falling. "I'm so happy." He tells me. I just nod my head in agreement because i couldn't find any words to express how happy i was too. And how much happier Oikawa is making me feel right now. "You're doing amazing, Koushi. I'm so fucking proud of you."

"Thank you." I hardly whisper. The words were harder than they should be. I felt the need to tell him how absolutely grateful i am for everything he does for me but not a word comes to mind. And 'thank you' hardly begins to start.

"You don't need to thank me." He laughed lightly and let's go from the hug to look me in the eyes. Even his Eyes were smiling back at me. I wondered if mine were too. They probably were.

"No, i do. Thank you for making this happen." He cocked his head to show he didn't understand what i meant. "You. Your Oikawa-ness. You're doing it."

He shakes his head and laughs. "It's all you, Koushi. Don't put the praise on me. You did it."

"You helped."

He stares at me few silent moments, then sighs, and says "Okay. We did it."
Yes. We did it. We're Doing it. And it's not even a dream...
"Now. How do we celebrate?"

"Actually, we're going out. With Daichi and Asahi. No questions asked, you're coming. They invited you. Or Asahi will egg your house."

"What-"

"We're meeting in less than an hour actually. We should get ready."
He nods his head and we both make our way to his bedroom. We both get changed, we both kiss, we kiss for a very long time, and then we both realise we're going to be late and end up having to rush all the way to the city centre where we were meeting the other two.