Neverending Story

CHAPTER 10

ROSE'S POV

Ever since kids, me and Christopher were already friends. He was my first friend. We were neighbors. Our families are also close.

I was aware of Chris' admiration growing up. We were also always being teased to each other during elementary. But, I really never had that same feelings he has for me. I just really see him as a friend.

Not until high school, that was grade 9. I never had a crush before or even a person I liked. He was the first one and I don't even expect it to be him.

It was that one time, on my 16th birthday, I confessed to him, on school. I said I liked him, but, during those times, I was sure, I really am sure, that his love for me  already fade away or maybe he's already into another girl. I taught that it was really too late.

And yes, I was right, he's already into someone.

He rejected me just like what I did to him. So this is what it feels like huh? Okay, I deserved it. Too late. So that time, I cried when I entered the classroom. I also cried on the restroom.

I wanted this right? I guess, finally  my old self would be happy for him huh? because now, he already found another girl to like. I always wished that back then because I want him to treat me only as a friend not as special someone.

It was Liliana, well, to be honest, I didn't felt any jealousy towards her. She's my friend. I'm even happy for her. Weird right?

3 years has passed, I don't know but that feelings for Chris just suddenly came back. I never liked other person, it was still him, really. I hated it actually cause, the person has a girlfriend already. I shouldn't be meddling in them now that they're on a relationship. I'm happy for them but, this feeling just felt weird for me.

But, we were still neighbors up until now. I don't know what happened but, we just found ourselves seeing each other at times and dining together, and literally just the two of us.

Maybe, I guess his love and old feelings for me back then, also came back?

It was that time when he asked me to come with him to the mall to buy a gift for Jennifer's birthday. I said sure, I'd be willing to, besides I'll be buying her a gift as well.

These days, I already had this feeling, that....this isn't right. What we're doing isn't right. I know that. I felt that this would be a betrayal if we continued like this. That I would be a traitor to my friend. Wow, I guess I'm stupid for love huh?

It was Jennifer's birthday. I don't have any plan to say that I'm still in love with him despite his rejection and after 3 years because, I don't want to ruin someone else's relationship. I don't want to be that kind of person. I also don't want to be the flirty typa girl.

He suddenly asked me to go with him on the parking lot as he has something important to tell me. I went with him but, I felt fear as I walked.

I was...stunned, I don't really know what to say when he just suddenly told me that his feelings for me came back and that he doesn't know what to do. So it really came back huh? I wasn't the only one. So, I confessed too, I told him, I let him know.

I don't know what happened but I just found myself responding to his sudden kiss.

Until we felt someone whose coming to us, it was Lili. This is what I'm fearing, her. She's my friend and I don't wanna betray her and be a traitor but, guess what, I already became one.

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CHRIS' POV

Growing up, it has always been her, Rose. My childhood friend and my childhood crush ever since. My first love.

I always admire her for everything most especially her many talents. But, growing up, I used to worry for myself, kasi alam kong hindi niya kayang suklian ang pagmamahal ko sakanya. Paano kung ako lang talaga ang may ganitong feelings? One sided? Mahihirapan lang ako.

Kaya siguro ako naging playboy, hindi sa gusto ko ah, at mas lalong hindi rin sa naghahanap ako ng rebound, it was not my intention, it never was. I was just trying if I could like  someone else aside from her. Kasi para saan pa ang pakikipag flirt ko sa iba kung siya parin diba?

Then it was Liliana. Bukod kay Rose, siya lang ang minahal ko. It was true love, it wasn't any fake. What I showed her was sincere, I'm sure of that. I've waited gaya ng gusto niya. I stopped flirting with other girls. I don't wanna lose her trust.

One day, on Rose's birthday, she confessed her feelings. Well I want to reject it cause, I'm waiting for someone, for Liliana, I was so ready for her. Also, I felt like that feelings I have for Rose back then already faded.

Until finally, we were grade 12. She's now ready to accept my love. And we became official. It was one of the happiest days, that finally we could be official.

Pero bakit ganon? Kung kailan naman niya ako sinagot at naging kami doon naman may nagbago. Not literally na nagbago, pero parang may kung anong feeling ang nagbalik sakin? It's like I started to doubt my feelings for Lili na kung siya na ba talaga?

And yes, I knew it, it was her, Rose. My feelings went back, suddenly after 3 years. Akala ko tuluyan nang nawala. Akala ko si Lili na.

I just found myself asking Rose to go out, to come with me. This is cheating. Ang gago lang talaga noh.

Suddenly I showed her the treatment I was only showing to Lili.

I have this feeling that her past feelings did came back too. On Jen's birthday, I told her. I felt so wronged but I wanted to let it out. And then I felt the urge to kiss her and so I did even though it was so fucking wrong.

At ayun na nga, nakita niya, nakita ni Lili ang kataksilang ginawa ko, namin. Maling mali pero paano kung nagbalik na ang feelings mo sa first love mo at mutual feelings na kayo?

I am a cheater, a traitor, I betrayed her, I lost her trust, her faith.

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LANA'S POV

Papunta ako sa mall ngayon para bumili ng regalo namin kay Jen para sa debut niya bukas. Susunduin ko rin ngayon si Aeri sa Coffee Shop na pinapapasukan niya.

Papunta ako sa coffee shop nang makita ko si Chris, oh andito pala boyfie nya, mukang susunduin niya si Aeri at sabay silang mag sha-shopping ah tsk #feltbetrayed.

Pero wait....bat kasama niya si Rose? Naroon sila sa YSL Saint Laurent store. I wasn't expecting the next things that I saw, nagtatawanan sila habang...mag kahawak kamay!? Omg!? The heck!? Hala nagyakapan pa nga. Maygash!

Sa totoo lang nagda-dalawang isip akong sabihin ito kay Lili. Oo, masasaktan siya at ayoko yon pero, karapatan niyang malaman toh hindi ba? At isa pa nagmamalasakit lang ako bilang matalik niyang kaibigan. Hindi ko kayang manahimik at magkunwaring walang nakita.

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IAN'S POV

I was invited to Jennifer's debut party. We're the same batch and she was my classmate twice.

I think I drank too much of juice and water causing me to feel the need to go to the restroom.

I was about to go out of the restroom when I heard a sob. It was from....a woman.

Sumilip ako sa women's restroom since wala namang ibang tao ron bukod sa babaeng umiiyak. Malapit lang naman sa men's restroom kaya rinig na rinig ko ang iyak ng babae.

I wanna know why she was crying, so I asked, "Miss are you alright?" I know it sounds kinda stupid kasi obvious naman na hindi siya okay eh umiiyak nga eh. Pero kasi instinct yon na yun ang una mong sasabihin sa ganitong sitwasyon.

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Song: Still into you by Paramore