First Love's Secret

chapter 6

Almost every day that scene with Drew confessing what he really feels about me keeps on repeating in my mind like a pirated CD. Oh God, what to do, Carrie, what to do. It was almost a week after that incident, but it feels like I'm doomed with it forever, and he wants to figure this out? What does that mean? Is he in denial to admit those things, regrets that it involves me the girl he dumped because of his ego, or maybe.

      "It sounds like he likes you Carrie" I was back in reality, Susie is reviewing my report while I day dream on something else. "What did you just said?" I revalidated what she said, "I said he likes you, it sounded here in the voice recorder that he likes you, great job Carrie." Susie pats me at the back, does she knows that the CEO is just two years younger than her and a year older than me? Oh, now what?

      "Hey, hey, hey, what's with the long face?" Simon says, "oh nothing." I answered. "But I just heard a good job from our boss." Oh Simon, why can't you just admit that you're gay and that we could be best buddies here and hang around, talk secrets, share problems and will not be an issue in this stupid company.

      "Hey, should I leave or not? 'Cause I think I could be all ears to someone who needs drama." he rolled his eyes at the same time giggle, wow what a talent. I smiled and nod, we were like buddies! I told him everything as in everything except for the sex part and its details.

      "Oh, wow. That could be a major major problem sistah!" saying with his gestures like the bald annoying gay fashion designer down across our building. We laughed and then smiled, "don't worry dear; I'm all support for this amazing love affair thingy." I made a shh gesture and he giggled. But before we part ways, I asked out of my curiosity, "hey," he stopped and look at me, "are you sure you're good about not opening up? I mean this gender in-between?" he smiled and winked at me, "It needs timing dear, and thank goodness someone so lovely notice it for the first time." then he left.

      It was a tired Sunday evening, and because I was all work whole weekend, I was rewarded to have an off on Monday, definitely I'm gonna have that whole day massage and pamper after all the stress.

      As I entered my unit, I was overwhelmed with all this rose petals all over the floor, on the dining table, on my violet leather sofa, coffee table, I mean everywhere, and it has an oh-so romantic ambiance here in my unit.

      "Hey there loves." but before I could turn around to face Jazz, he surprised me with a passionate kiss and held me intimately. "You need to rest my loves" he whispered on my mouth. We kissed until we end up in bed, he was too eager to have me, "I want to be yours, I'm all yours my love" he said while still caressing me intimately.

      It was a while making love to Jazz, because of his hectic schedule, being a senior intern pilot was all he ever dreamed of, so all I can do is support. "It's been a while" I whispered sexily on his ears which thrill him. I lay on my bed while he is seated on top of me taking off his funnel shirt and exposing his great sexy body. I touch him, and then he started kissing me on my forehead, on my neck, on my cheeks and on my mouth which takes my breath away. So lucky to have such kind of man.

      After the extremely, mind blowing make love, I woke up without him by my side, and saw him preparing our mid night snack. I sit on the kitchen counter, we look into each other's eyes, and I'm taking every single moment of my life to have Jazz as my boyfriend, can't wait to have him as my fiancé or best husband and have our very own happy family, and definitely I love to grow old with him.

      I caught him staring at me and then he kissed my forehead, I feel very much loved, protected and dizzy. My world started spinning, and before I almost fell down the counter he caught me and rushes me to the reclining sofa.

      "Are you alright love? You just passed out." I can see all the worries in his eyes. "I'm ok" I assured him, and then he kissed the back of my hand. "You got me so worried; I think you're just hungry." I nod and he went to the kitchen to get our food. What the heck just happened to me? I don't remember having vertigo nowadays? And suddenly I can feel that sick feeling where I badly need to throw up.

      I rushed into the bathroom, and I heard Jazz knocked on the door, "Love? Are you sure you're ok, I think I should rush you to the hospital." but there's nothing to throw up, "it's ok love, I'm alright, there's nothing wrong." but absolutely there is.