First Love's Secret

chapter 9

It has been a month after the incident and nerve-breaking moment with me and Drew at the hospital, and the last time I heard about him is that he is already at New York City. Time flies so fast, the changes in my body is more and more visible as my pregnancy goes by.

      "Hi sexy," Jazz kissed me, he already knew about my pregnancy and I with the support of my friends stick with the lie, that I am having Jazz' baby. "And hello there sweetheart!" he kissed my tummy, this was the life I've been envisioning all those times, we are officially going to be a family.

      Jazz, fetch me from work today, it was his first time to do that, but I don't want to spoil this moment so I hang on to it. "Where are you going to take me Mr. Gorgeous Pilot?" Jazz got the certification that he will be graduating at the end of this month. Everything seems to go on my way, and I'm sure everything's going to be fine.

      "Just sit back and relax my love, where going to wonderland" he and his kid at heart, which I think is very sweet of him and makes me feel giddy just by thinking where on earth is this wonderland he is saying. We stopped at a fine Victorian restaurant, "Oh my gosh, Jazz! What are you up to?" I covered my mouth in awe, "trust me my love, I know you've been waiting for this" then he winked, hey what is the meaning of that?

      We went inside the restaurant and the waiter led us to a table for two at a perfect view of the beautiful lake. As we take our seat and ordered some food, I curiously asked, "Honey, don't tell me I forgot it's our monthsary?! but as I remembered that would be next week, Is this celebration in advanced?" but Jazz smiled at me all eyes on me too, I may say I am a lucky girl to have my fairytale like love story all the way and having my prince charming and soon happily ever after when my child is born.

      Thinking about my child I feel a little bit guilty, I didn't gave his father a chance for us, maybe because I was just thinking of our future or maybe I was just too selfish I was just only thinking of my future, I'm sorry child, I hope someday you'll understand.

      We silently enjoyed the food, and then we take our desserts, I notice something shimmering, something brilliant in my chocolate parfait, I checked on it and to my amused, "is this a...ring?" I asked Jazz with my eyes wide open. He got the ring, kneel down before me and put the ring in my finger, Oh my goodness I was not expecting this one, "Carina Lee, would you like to change your family name to Benson?" we both let out a short laugh, "It would be okay if you asked me to marry you" I answered, he couldn't hide the wide beam on his face, "sure! I mean Carina Lee, will you marry me?" and I said yes!

      Everyone is excited, especially the ones half expecting for it, "Wow. It is beautiful Carrie" Kath can't help drooling at my engagement ring. "How much does it cost?" Simon asked, what is wrong with him he seems so bitter. Ever since Jazz came back, he and Simon didn't get along that well.

"I hope your mind's fixed when you said yes to that man," Simon continued, I had enough, "Ok fine, what's wrong with you? You seemed so...so not you! And that man is not just that man, he is my longtime boyfriend for God's sake, stop acting like your some kind of a bitter freak!" I shouted at Simon, loud enough to get everyone's attention in my engagement party.

"What is wrong with here?" Jazz came in a mood for fight, "no it's ok, it's just the mood swings that's all" I calm him down then stared at Simon, who is now gathering his things ready to go. "Simon, where are you going?" I asked him wanting him to stop, "I think you're not ready for this now, yeah right your mood swings, maybe we'll talk sometime, when those moods are in stable condition." I tried to stop him, but it's no use "I don't want to mess up your party sweetheart, we'll talk don't worry it's just not the right time now" he said softly and calmly and then he left.

What is wrong with the people? it's like I'm losing them, Simon and I are still not in good terms, he didn't answer my call and while I'm on leave at work, we barely see each other.