First Love's Secret

chapter 10

Time flies so fast, and my bump starts to get bigger and bigger that I can't even see my toes now, and we already set our wedding date after the birth of my baby girl.

      "You looked blooming Carrie" Susie, welcomed me when I visited the office, "what brought you here? You are supposed to be in your maternal leave, you're due this month" Susie reminded me. "Yes, I know Susie" I smiled, and then I saw Simon, "actually I'm here to visit someone," I rush to Simon, I almost slipped chasing him and thank God Simon got me before I break my hips and have my miscarriage. "You're one stubborn hot pregnant woman." Simon told me and I had him.

      We went for a coffee in a café outside our company's building, it serves the best coffee in town, but too bad I'm not having one for now. "So have you made up your mind?" Simon asked, he's joking right? If he's pertaining to my bump here. "I mean the wedding" he cleared out. "Oh, that" he sees the disappointing look on my face, "Oh dear, so it's final, you're getting married with an asshole" Simon blurted. "Hey, watch your mouth, he's my fiancé and you're my friend," he cuts me out, "and as your friend I have the right to be concern, are you sure you're going to raise dear lil' Carrie with that man I mean, you're fiancé?" I don't know what to say, I know he is not the biological father of my baby but I know he will be a good step-father.

      "So where are you leading this Simon?" I asked him, envious of him enjoying my favorite kind of coffee. "Well, I admit it, I heard you're conversation with Drew at the hospital, and I know how concerned he is, to you and his child, if he only knew, in which I think he had the gut feeling it's really his, which is very clever of him..." ugh, I don't know where is this leading, that's the disadvantage of having a gay friend, there are so many extra details which leads to flight of ideas, I listened to him as he continued, "and he even send you some flowers and fruits, which is so sweet! He could be a great father if you just gave him the chance." There that was the point.

      I took a deep breath before speaking, "I felt him Simon, those words they are very tempting, and I admit I was falling in love with him again, but..." why is every beautiful statement ends with a but? "But what?" Simon asked impatiently, I looked far away remembering how it started.

      He was my first crush aka dream guy way back in high school, he was part of the varsity basketball league and Badji's friend, he was every girls dream boy, so it was not easy for me to come near him.  It was in our senior year, God must have heard my prayers, we became classmates, and it was mere luck that we were partnered in our biology class. I had the best senior memories, because we became friends, at first he was too difficult to understand, he was stubborn, and with an I-don't-care attitude it took me long enough to understand him and him understanding me. All the girls envy me because I became friends with the dream guy Andrew Philips, which was a little bit intimidating for me because he was so out of my league. He was perfect, I was like the geekiest girl one could ever see, but yet we get along with each other. It was like we're meant to be with each other, meant to be friends but who cares at least I'm with him. We study together, we eat lunch together with Badj and Kath and he even asked me to be his senior night's date. It was a dream came true, I never expected that someday he will be my date for that very special night, the night every senior awaits.

      The night came, we were all dressed with our gowns and the guys are in suits, and yes, he really looked good that night. He even fetch us at Kath's house along with Badj, and we drove silently going to our school. That moment when we we're inside Badj's car, while Badj and Kath make out in the front seat, our eyes met. He had the most beautiful blue eyes I have ever seen, it was like time stops the very second we looked at each other. He held my hand, and cupped my cheeks with his other hand, at that moment I thought he was going to kiss me but instead he just told me how beautiful I am that night. Even if we didn't had our first kiss, just by mere looking at each other's eyes gives butterflies in my tummy and melts my insides, he was the very first guy who looked into my eyes and said those sweet words. But as I have said, every beautiful things ends with a but, I didn't had my best night ever.

      I heard Simon asked, "Why what happened? go on finish it I'm getting too excited here," so I continued. I went to the CR to pee then while inside the cubicle I heard those bitches talk about me and I do prefer it was me because all I can remember is that their insulting the girl whom Andrew Philips took as a date that night. I got so pissed with all those geeky insults they threw at me, so when I got out of the CR after them, I went straight to Drew, but I got lost sight of him. I looked everywhere, then I heard something at the back door, I am so sure it was Andrew, I even peeked into that little hole on the wall to make sure, it was Andrew with the basketball league, they are laughing, then they asked Andrew about me, "Is she really your date? Oh looks like dear Andrew here is pinning for the geekiest girl on planet." Then they all laugh and to my surprised Andrew did too. I was so shocked, he told them, I was not a girlfriend material, it was too much to bear, I couldn't take it anymore so I went back inside to find Kath, and ask her to take me home.

      I can see that Simon almost got teary eyed after I relate my past, our past. "Oh dear, so what happened after that? You just left without giving him the chance to explain?" Simon asked teary eyed. "Yeah, because Kath doesn't want to go home yet I called my father to come and fetch me." I continued. "Aww, I was...very...well, I don't know what to say Carrie." Simon, looked at me and gave me his warmest hug, oh I missed that hug. "Not to tight you might hurt the lil' woman inside this bump" he breakaway, then he rubs my tummy.

      Before we part ways Simon said something, "You know what you should have gave him the chance Carrie, you were so much in love with  him, and you didn't gave him the chance to patch things up, maybe he didn't mean it or—" he stopped after seeing my I-had-enough-talk look at him. Then we part ways, I stroll along the city, I took a deep breath oh how much I missed my Me-time every time I walk going home.