First Love's Secret

chapter 11

I missed those shops, those cafés, those breathtaking skyscrapers, the busy road and out of the blue I saw him, I mean Drew going out from that antique shop, he saw me. In an instant I remembered the night, under moonlight, inside Badj's car, just the two of us staring each other like this.

      I can say that he looked surprised when he saw me, I turn the other way around, I thought he was at New York, time flies so fast and I also lost track of him. "Carrie, wait!" he called out, I stopped. He was at my back standing, I can feel it, and I can feel those tantalizing eyes darting at me.

      I faced him and I was right, "hey" I tried to smile or yet forced it? He smiled back. He came closer to me, "You looked different." he checked on me, "I looked fat, I know" I corrected him. "No more like fresh and blooming" then he checked on my bump, "I'm due this month" he asked me if he can touch it, I nod.

      The moment Drew touch my bump, there was this feeling the connection he was insisting that night at the hospital, it was like the jigsaw puzzle was made whole again. Then suddenly we felt that my lil baby girl just kicked, "hey did you feel that? It kicked!" he was so much amused than I am, "hey it's a girl not an it!" I commented.

      "I think she hates me" he frowned, "I don't think so, it might be that she likes you" then I saw his blue eyes lit with excitement and full of love. I suddenly felt guilty about this guy, I owe him two things, first the chance for us and his baby.

We walked and talked, we sure missed each other's company, "I thought you we're at New York?" I asked him, conscious about me knowing his whereabouts. "Yeah, I stayed there for a while" he answered, "was it for the lady who caught Mr. Martin's heart?" I teased. "No it was more of a family thing" I stopped, "My mom's very ill, she has a heart failure, she's there for her treatment, and as the only one family she have I must be always at her side." he shared this to me. Suddenly I feel very bad about myself, Drew might lose his mother and she was the only family he has, and here I am selfishly keeping her granddaughter away from them.

      Then I started to cry, Drew got so shocked, he didn't expect he could have let someone cry with his story, well for me Drew it's more of a personal thing! If only I took that chance the night at the hospital, if only I made the right choice as what Kath have told me. I keep on crying and crying, I don't care that I made a scene out here at the square, the only thing I care is my guilt.

      "Carrie, are you okay?" Drew asked with a worried look on his face then he noticed, there was blood gushing under my dress. "Holy shit Carrie you're bleeding!" he cried. "No it's not bleeding, it's time!" I shouted at him. Then Drew took me to the hospital, I can't believe this is happening I'm about to give birth to this man's child! I was half expecting Jazz would be the one carrying me to the hospital, but I think fate has its own way to correct my life, just to make things the way it has to be.

After a gave birth to dear Bea, I never heard about the guy who rushed me to the hospital when my bag of water broke, and also the father of the child. It's been a year now, Bea's coping very fast, after I almost lose her because of her congenital heart failure, and at that time I had two intensely deep emotional feeling every mother can have, first was when I almost passed out pushing her outside this world and second was when I was looking at her heart crushed inside NICU gaping for life.

      But now, everything's fine, I still have my daughter, bubbly and cheerful as can be and is now happily married with my prince charming Jazz. After those depressing moments I had with Bea, he was there, supporting me all throughout my post-pregnancy state, we finally got married 2 months after.