A hero's fall (Shigarakixreader)ONHOLD

mixdfeelins

TW: some suggestive dialogue 

    You jolt awake not remembering where you are. Images of the night before flash behind your eyelids and you look around to see some of your stuff in piles on the floor of a small room and what definitely looked like a leaky roof issue. You take a deep breath shaking slightly from malnutrition. Before leaving the agency you had been battling an eating disorder so the toll of having only two rice balls and water for five days had you about to collapse.

You get out of the door but stumble down the stairs. Shigaraki grabs the back of your shirt to stop you from falling face first only...it disintegrates. You blush and wrap your arms around yourself. "WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?!" Your cheeks burn and the scenario briefly reminds you of one of the "meetings" you had with Endeavor. "Shit." Is all he mutters turning from you knowing if he's going to keep you wrapped around his finger he needs to respond the way you want him to. Only he really wanted to touch you...everywhere.

"Y/N I really just wanted to stop you from falling down the stairs. I do not have control of my quirk. I was only trained to use it more." His vulnerable response makes you consider touching him. Even as dangerous as he is, you had always wondered what lay beneath that mask. "It's fine Shigaraki just uh...thanks for not letting me get a black eye. I'm sure that would have been quite funny for you." Shigaraki chuckles and pulls a hand from his face to look at you full on.

"I think I might take a liking to you. If you prove useful that is." His words send shivers through your body, one of fear that made sense to your logical brain, but the...attraction...was that just because you were kinda dying?

"I need a shirt and sustenance before I'm of any use to anyone." Shigaraki nods but when your ear passes him he mutters, "I'm sure I could find use for you without any clothing." His tone felt so dangerously delicious. Like he could destroy anything that's ever hurt you and then set the rubble ablaze. Your own attraction takes you by surprise. 'What am I even doing?!' your mind yells in exasperation. 

You find a bathroom shower and get dressed in your favorite black sweatpants, a sports bra, and a zip up jacket. Walking down the stairs you look back behind you not wanting a repeat of earlier where Shigaraki seemed to materialize out of nowhere behind you. 'I need to pay more attention this isn't home. You don't know what they want with you.' The last part of your thoughts makes you want to run for your life, but logically you knew that they would not allow you to get far. Possibly not even to the door with your fatigued body.

You take a deep breath before turning to enter the main bar. Glad you finally found it after several wrong turns, but stop short to listen to the voices.

Dabi: "Shigaraki this is reckless even for you why the fuck is there a hero sleeping next door to me?"

Toga: "Yeah why isn't she by me I could have drained her in her sleep" The blonde giggles maniacally and you realize just how dangerous she truly is.

Shigaraki: "Y/N is not for anyone to touch but me. If I find out a finger has been laid on her you will become dust on her floor after begging forgiveness." You shiver why did this man seem so inexplicably obsessed with you.

You decide now is better than any time and walk into the bar area your head held high. 'TIme to put that emotional abuse to good use.' your inner monologue egged you on making you appear far less fearful than you felt. "I need food or I may actually die. So you guys should decide whether you want that or not." The league looks at you with a mixture of surprise and smirks. Dabi shakes his head slowly taking your small frame in. He liked that he could shatter your bones if he so chose, and it amused him how accepting you seem about dying.

You return his gaze with rage and Shigaraki sends cracks along the bar counter. "I'll have Kurogiri warp me to some food, we ran out last night." You nod at Shigaraki and sit down on a bar stool putting your head against the cool surface trying to quell the unrelenting headache slamming against your temples.

"On second thought..." He trails off looking down at his phone that he mostly only used for surveillence before continuing. "our guest has arrived out back. Twice go through Kurogiri and get Y/N here some food. I'd like to have some time with our new pawn." You wince slightly expecting that could only possibly mean the worst for you. You fiddle with you fiddle with your finger nails nervously wondering who the "guest" could possibly be.

To your surprise Shigaraki takes you back to a room where another man sits at a table with a pen and pad. You nod to the man, your eyes narrowing. 'What the fuck?' "Hey kid. You're gonna need a better quirk resistant outfit. That's where I come in. "Tech or suit I can get it." His smirk gives you a bad feeling in the pit of your stomach, thankfully he does not seem to exhibit any interest in hurting you '...yet.' your mind warns you spurring the level of caution you take up a notch.

"I do not need anything from you. Thanks though." You announce with a shrug but Shigaraki stops you with his fist holding his thumb out to the side to be sure he did not decay you. "Just tell the man about your quirk so we can go." Shigaraki frowns down at you and begins scratching his neck.

"Alright dude you'd think a person interested in suits for quirk users would know about me but then again...Endeavor did keep me underground." You shake your head when offered a seat. Standing just felt safer. "I store sunlight and then I can shoot lasers that can melt nearly anything when I have enough sunshine in a day. If I don't get a lot of sun I'm able to use the moon to shoot beams that disintegrate things similar in fashion to Shigaraki's decay, but it's kinda complicated." The men blink at you ingesting the information for a moment before you hear his pen start to scratch across the page. He shows you a sketch of a celestial pattern revealing one piece. (loosely inspired by raven in teen titans) with a black cloak that hung low. It made you think of an enchantress in a game you might have played before. 

"You are good at what you do." You state simply and the man nods excited. "I'm new to helping around here. I must impress." Something behind the man's eyes makes you want to crawl away but you fight the urge, and stay perfectly stone on the outside. "Are we done here?" The man nods at Shigaraki's question, still looking at you. "We'll be leaving now, pet. Let's go." You look up to argue with the new name, but something in Shigaraki's eye told you that may just be the last thing you do. With a nod you stand and follow him out of the room passing Dabi who you assumed would be the man's escort out.

"Why did you call me that?" You question the villain in front of you in a soft tone. "I didn't like the way he looked at you. I asserted dominance." You gulp and nod remembering the darkness in the man's eyes. "Thank you." Is all you say before your vision begins to waver. "Shig..." You grab his arm and slide down just before you guys can enter back into the bar. 

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A/N Hello everyone! And thank you for reading this far. I wanted to take a moment to let you know that I am kind of using this as therapy at this point so it is likely to get darker mental health, and abuse wise. If that's something that you think would trigger you I have some other MHA fanfics on my page that aren't nearly as heavy. 

Keep safe <3