A hero's fall (Shigarakixreader)ONHOLD

Curious events

TW: brief mention of SA, Dissociation episode for Y/N

At about midnight you and Dabi head out in full battle attire. In order to teach washer and various other minor heroes he works with a lesson they likely will not even live through. Your blood is singing as you navigate around the rooftops slightly behind Dabi. You're not at 100% still and you find yourself thanking the stars for adrenaline. "Do not push yourself Y/N. I know that doctor didn't show you much mercy." The villain instructs you in a cool tone that irritates you. "Dabi please just let me do my job alright." You reply before jumping down into the alleyway below, and crouching behind some dumpsters. You guys have about an hour of hiding out until washer and his colleagues left

"You are impossible." He grumbles as he settles next to you scrunching his nose a bit as if he weren't as used to this as you are by now. You wonder why he did it at all but you decide to be a brat and reply, "Yea you're definitely not the first to tell me that." followed by an annoyed scoff at the villain next to you. His eyes narrow in a way that makes you suddenly very aware that you guys are out on a mission that your Master had no part of...did he know where you were? were? Surely he wouldn't let me wander away like that...right? Before you can even realize what's happening a panic attack grips your chest and twists your stomach into a mess of nausea. "Y/N you need to get it together, we have a damn job to do." Dabi's words are cold and send your panic somewhere deep in your gut.

A sort of dissociation yanks your mind from your body. "Sorry Sir." You mumble lowering your head a bit. 'At least I got titles right this time' you think silently to yourself but continue to note, '...it just...doesn't feel natural when it's not with him.'

"We both know you belong to him." Is all Dabi says as if he could've read your mind. "I don't know what that scumboss is getting at here." He stops talking but in his mind he's explaining how he wants to show you that your obsession with Tomura is turning you into someone you're not, but he knows better than almost anyone just how deep these feelings can be. Just how consuming. He'll never tell you what he thinks...but he had hoped to take this weird opportunity to show you.

Finally the heroes begin to make their way through the very dimly lit alleyway that you and Dabi remain huddled in. They are talking about the villains they've encountered. Bragging about ruining the lives of men who have committed awfully petty crimes. Hearing the words they speak brings your emotions to full power which also does the same for your glowing.

"Hey, what's that?" One hero announces and you realize your little quirk just gave you away. You stand up and saunter towards the men who clearly appreciate the view while Dabi sneaks through the rubbish to position himself behind them. "Well hello. You fresh meat from UA?" Your eyes narrow at the man who spoke. "Jin Suzuki, thirty five years of age. You hit a stripper then decided that she was not allowed to leave your private room. Is that correct?" The man's eyes grow wide as saucers and the men with him look over in silent dread. In washer's eyes you see a flicker of realization. "You killed-"

"Dabi NOW!" You exclaim and from both sides your quirks slamming into each other the men are burned enough they're unable to stand. Washer shoots for you first but you jump up onto a fire escape. Without hesitation you aim your hand at the odd thing and say, "Ya know what ass hole. Dead machines don't rape either." Before completely vaporizing a hole straight through him and one other "hero".

Hopping down you find Dabi has nearly everything incinerated before him except of course the wallets he stole while they were staring at you. "You like the fear in their eyes don't you?" Dabi asks but you are wearing a grim expression as you once again laser into the wall "Dead Men Don't Rape! Redemption is coming." He nods at the proclamation before pointing at the bottom, "Nice addition little mouse." You go to stand but your knees buckle. "Fuck!" You exclaim in anger as the pain from your mission hits all at once. "You good mouse?" He asks rather quickly but somehow still sounding sarcastic. "I can't tell if you're concerned or annoyed but nah I'm not good." You grit your teeth as you begin to walk toward the exit of the alley. The pressure of each step is sending pins and needles through your legs. "I need my Master." You huff into the night.

You and him make your way back to headquarters quite a bit slower than when you were rushing to the destination. "If you go any slower I am going to leave you out here." Dabi grumbles earning him a roll of your eyes. "Dabi, if you left me here Master might not allow you another day on this earth." Dabi chuckles at your response, shaking his head. "We're like a block away now by the way." He responds and you realize he wasn't being an asshole this time...oof. "Sorry I misunderstood." Your voice is so soft the cars nearly drown it out, but he gets it. He's been fucked over enough to know how vulnerable these streets can make you feel.

"Do you think I will get turned into a nomu if I went to see him?" You finally ask the question that's been picking at the back of your mind all this time. "Probably. If I didn't order you to go. You're more trouble than your worth right now and I'm not gonna walk this slow again in my fucking life." You shove the giddy feeling down as you walk into your home. Wishing you could thank him. You sit in your booth and await instruction that you know won't come. You're glowing again and realize just how convenient it is that the glow doesn't have a color because this glow meant euphoria and suddenly you're floating in a dopamine wave.

"Hey Dusty, she's yours for a night or two I'm not gonna go on any job with her being this fucking slow. Tell that doctor she's a player in your little game so he stops ruining it." Dabi announces to the room before leaving to what you assumed would be his room and then the roof. Sitting silently your eyes shift from your Master at the counter and the floor. "Come pet." Is all he says leaving to go to his bedroom. "Yes Master." The two words are filled with relief Kurogiri notes the immediate relaxed state your muscles go into. "She loves him." Toga says seriously surprising everyone in the room considering it's a topic she is only ever squealing about. "That's dangerous." She says before heading upstairs to her own little room.

Down in his room he silently strips you bare and seems to inspect you. Before pointing to his bed. "Yes Master." You breathe out the words before sitting on the edge of the bed unsure of what exactly he wants from you. "Rest." Is the only word he blesses you with filling you with such love and gratitude that you are sent flying high in emotion.

"May I smoke a cigarette please Master? I withheld during the mission to avoid detection." Shigaraki looks over, removing the hand from his face. "Come get it and smoke it sitting at my feet." You nod and whisper a "thank you." grabbing his black comforter you pad over to him with your head covered. He sets an ashtray below his desk, a lighter and cigarette before turning on his computer. Being here with him feels so lovely filling you up with happiness. "The fight is over why are you glowing?" He asks without looking away from his screen. "Oh ... um... My quirk can also activate when I am happy. It makes me feel high but doesn't affect fighting." You explain as you light your cigarette.

"Why didn't you tell me before?" He asks looking down at you feelings of what sounds like betrayal hang in the air for a moment while you try to figure out if he's angry. "Um I thought it was broken I guess? I've not felt it since before Endeavor...When Hawks and I were teenagers." You bite your lip realizing he may not have known that either. "You've told me nothing for what reason slut?" You flinch at his words and angry tone. "It's really because you never asked...I thought you just wanted me to be good at the moment. I'll tell you anything, Master." Your response is soft and your heart full of fear. Fear that he's going to dismiss you as his slave not because of death, but because you need him.

"Please don't drop me as your slave." You whimper quietly by now your glow is long gone and Shigaraki finds himself wanting to hold you. "I do not plan on doing that. You are correct that I have neglected to ask for information." You puff out the last of your cigarette and put out the but before standing to head to your Master's bed. "I am going to rest now, Master. Thank you again for the cigarette." You give a little bow and shuffle yourself burritoed in his comforter to the bed where you almost instantaneously pass the hell out. Finally the emotional roller coaster of the week is done.

Shigaraki finds himself peeking over at you every so often. A pressure of emotion has been building in him for some time and it was beginning to annoy him. Sure he'd let you touch him as something other than a Master before, but that was one time. The memory flashes into his mind making him growl and look back at his computer screen expertly taking down other players. He hates wanting to hold you tenderly. At first he just wanted to speak with you but the more that freedom gets stolen the more he craves touching you.

He suddenly realizes Dabi may have touched you and a surge of anger courses straight through his heart. This experiment was bull shit. "I know you're fucking with me." He says out loud hoping All For One won't know but wonders if it's about him.