A hero's fall (Shigarakixreader)ONHOLD

your mission delivered

Finally after four days in the facility you begin the talk of when and how you will be training your quirks. The organization of training seems eerily similar to hero school training like the U-A you had once attended. Re-Destro and Shigaraki talk into little microphones connected to a computer the techy dude uses to broadcast onto every tv and radio in the facility, and you find yourself hoping somehow you will get to pass on the training.

You begin reminiscing about the place you once considered a second home for yourself and feel as if you could gag. Anger boils up from deep inside you a volcano you hadn't realized was still bubbling. After their speech Shigaraki turns to you with a grim expression. "You won't be training, pet." Your heart flutters 'I'll stay with you!' your inner monologue squeals only to fall into stunned silence as his words come back into focus.

"You will be living in the city and continuing your work for the next week or so. We need more fire power." You sit like stone before him and Re-Destro who would often look at you from the side of his eyes which otherwise stayed on your Master. Both men's demeanor dare you to argue but something behind Shigaraki's sigh tells you perhaps now at the very least is not the time.

You can't help yourself. Immediately a panic takes over your mind and body forcing labored breathing and a racing heart. "But...I bring your food." Your eyes are wide, unable to process your surroundings...separated? "A week?" Your voice is just a whisper abandonment rears its insidious head and leaves you nearly speechless. Shigaraki nods.

"At the very least my pet. You will be required to make two phone calls with me a day." Shigaraki informs you with Re-Destro piping in, "We'll have eyes on you though so don't worry about being arrested." The smile he gives following his statement brings a sour feeling to your stomach and you wonder if that means your new walls will have eyes...

Shigaraki lets out a sigh pulling his weary body to stand. SInce you wandered off you hadn't seen him sleep much. "I have one night to prepare my slave and pack its shit. We'll be going now. Send dinner to my room Re-Destro." Watching Tomura instruct others always makes you feel a twinge of anger. It coils like a snake in your stomach before slithering up your spine and into your chest. 'Mine.' Your mind snarls, staring daggers at Re-Destro from beneath your eyelashes.

"Of course." Re-Destro says giving a small bow he takes the moment's advantage to lick his lips looking straight at you knowing how uncomfortable it would make you. 'He's pushing further now.' Your mind notes a cautious glow surrounds your body as the anger from earlier morphs into anxiety. You and Shigaraki leave calmly but turning your back feels wrong. You know he thinks your prey...but how do you make him realize you're not for him to feast on?

You are so caught up in your own thoughts you do not realize that your Master has stopped in front of the door while you keep walking, your body in complete auto-pilot. "Come!" His voice breaks through your walls pulling you back into reality. Suddenly reality settles, your knees buckle and your shoulders slump against the weight of fear. "S-sorry Master." You whimper, turning slowly and dredging back to him. Once the door is closed Shigaraki eyes sweep the room before resting on your quivering frame curled into the side of the bed, your ass on the floor.

"Get on the bed." His voice is soft as if he were speaking to a dangerous wild animal. Neither of you know how to navigate this, and though he knows his expectations he can't help but be tender with you like this. Shigaraki knows the programming he's built into you. Neither of you planned on ever parting..."C-can we go on a walk?" Your request is a whisper hardly loud enough to be heard.

Your body tingles everywhere as your quirk encapsulates you holding you hostage in its force. "Yes." Shigaraki holds out one of his gloved hands for you to take. "You need to build strength anyways. We will move through the trees." You haven't really registered his words. Simply sit staring at his hand once again slipping into obsession. "Master, you are so amazing." Tears well up in your eyes that you try to ignore completely taking his hand he pulls you from the floor fighting his urge to hold you against him.

You both walk through the halls with your body aglow. Finally after many stares and bows from people in the hallways your Master hits the exit and guides you away from the facility on the same path you and Dabi had taken together. "Now pet." He instructs before launching himself into a tree and winding his way up through the branches. Your body acts on instinct and like a good dog follows your alpha.

Up the tree you scurry along until he surprises you jumping to the next one and again over to another and another. You both glide through the branches as if it were your own personal training ground until you both have a few splinters and are left panting. Your glow has slowly faded seeing as moving your body on little to no food for the last few days is exhausting you.

"I noticed." Shigaraki states without context at all. Your head tilts to the side, an innocent ignorance painting your features. "You need to take better care of yourself. I will start giving you orders at every meal instead of just dinner." You give a tight nod. "It's not on purpose Master...I'm always watched...it turns my stomach. Not easy to eat like that." You admit to him glad you can finally talk about the feelings you've been struggling with pertaining to eating. Shigaraki gives an understanding nod. "I get you have been through a lot but I'm not going to allow you to get hurt or die under my care if I'm able to stop it. That's my job as your Master, to keep you safe."

Your heart swells with gratitude for being put in his care, your eyes glossing over with tears. "M-Master." You stutter in admiration. "I will do better for you Master." You breathe out the words as a single tear slips down your cheek. "My dark little angel." He says leaning forward on his branch so that his lips are just inches from yours. "Forever." You whisper in response before he kisses your lips.

This kiss feels so different then your other ones. You are both soft in this moment, and little do you know...he's not faking it this time. His gloved hand reaches out and with two fingers he strokes your cheek gently moving a strand of hair behind your ear. The tenderness of the moment is nearly enough to shatter your heart. He pulls away a light in his eyes you've not seen before and then slowly he begins his descent.

"You do need to pack tonight pet. Be sure to grab both costumes. We don't need you caught for being too obviously yourself." His voice floats between the tree limbs as if he were a ghost. Until finally a soft thud is heard. You look down and find that you are at the last branch. Shigaraki stands as if he's not paying attention, but the moment you jump his arms are out to catch you.

"Remember pet, that I will need those two calls no matter what. We have you set to be on the lowest floor of an apartment building in the same district headquarters was in. The area isn't safe, always be aware. I tried to get better placement, but anymore pushing it would have been suspicious. I did not want this but I do see the use of the decision. You can do it right?" Your knees buckle at the unexpected question...'can I?' you wonder while gazing at your Master who has stopped mid stride to get a response from you.

"I...I don't kn-now." YOu burst into tears then. They leak from your cheeks to your chin dripping into the chasm between you and your Master. You can feel the strings pulling without him even leaving yet. 'Can I do this?' Your mind asks again, bringing you to your knees. Shigaraki lets out a soft gasp and attempts to catch you only to be met with air as your knees thud harshly into the dirt and roots below.

"I have to...I'm a good girl." You whimper, grabbing your hair in both your hands. 'I can't.' A tiny voice in your head whispers. It's now that you remember the abandonment you felt when telling your family, friend, and ex about what was going on. The deep abandonment wound pulsing with pain you'd hoped you could forget.

Shigaraki kneels before you, putting one of his hands on the top of your head and he plays with your hair. "My love," His voice is a whisper so low you can't hardly grasp onto the words. "I will be watching. Know that you're protected even away from me. No one will touch you again." You realize he thinks you're worried about being sexually attacked again.

"Master...I don't think you-you don't get it..." You drop your voice into a nearly inaudible whisper as well when you continue, "Tomura I don't want to be without you...it's not fear. It hurts." His heart leaps having not thought you were so tied to him. He had thought maybe you'd be excited to leave him at first. He thought he'd have to use this as a learning point, but here you are clinging to the earth for stability in your emotions. "I said I'd do anything for you to achieve your goals. I meant that." You take a deep breath and pull yourself from the ground tears continue to stream down your cheeks but the look in your eyes is one of determination. "Good girl." Shigaraki replies, a slight smile playing at his lips. "My sweet little pet." He coos hand reaching out to your face. "I believe in your capabilities in this my sweet angel."