TW: substance use, experiments,
Chapter 19
The doctor ends up sending jolts of electricity and radioactive lasers through you. Analyzing how your quirk responds to stress and pain. Finally after what feels like days but was only about five hours you are finally released. Your throat is dry and scratchy from screaming and your body is so weak from quirk use that you are unable to move.
"You are done for the day, pet. WarpGate awaits." Shigaraki makes his way over to you, his eyes giving away his emotions like always. Deep in those crimson orbs you see true sympathy and sadness. This is the most intense emotion you've seen him express and still it took an extremely trained eye to see it.
"I...can't...move..." You whimper trying to simply sit up, your body quivering madly with the slightest movement. "Its muscles are partially destroyed. No work for a while, kid." You nod at the doctor's words who bravely walks right up to you. "Thank you for the specimen Shigaraki." The doctor finishes what he has to say bows and takes his leave.
"You won't be coming back here until fully healed. The doctor wants you at full capacity next time." You nod still unsure of how they expect you to be able to leave. Suddenly Shigaraki lifts you from the chair bridal style. "You will be on the bed tonight, pet." You nod too stunned and shy to speak. This nurturing side of him is your new favorite.
Kurogiri warps you right to Shigaraki's room then silently takes his leave. You lie on your master's bed in pain and quivering. "It hurts Master." You finally whimper, unable to hold back tears. "I know pet." Is the only response you get from your Master before he sets up to game at his desk. You can stand and walk now, but would rather like to avoid it. You despise that he can not hold you here like at the park...you could really use the comfort.
"I told Dabi I'd smoke with him tonight...may I please still do that?" Shigaraki's eyes narrow and he slowly looks over at you. "And why did you tell him that?" Your Master stands making his way over to you. From your perspective he just seems mad, but what he feels inside is a rage born of the insatiable need to protect you.
"He wants to discuss my training for when we are assigned further missions together." You recount the situation and even after all day his actions still didn't make much sense to you. "I will inform him you will be absent this evening." Shigaraki replies with a dark glare daring you to object. "Thank you Master." Shigaraki smirks at your response feeling rather proud of his slave.
"Well your little pet there sure has an interesting quirk. "When away from you for an extended period of time it seemed to respond with less and less stability. Even its quirk became unmanageable. You have broken it." Shigaraki's eyes bulge and he comes immediately to your defense. "Without orders, yes my pet is useless. The same as Machia master, but she can be instructed to take orders from others as well. That was the purpose of sending her with Dabi in the first place."
All For One chuckles and your stomach drops...what is he planning? "I think I will have to study that closer, Shigaraki. It will be in Dabi's care starting next week. Perhaps it should go and tell him the good news then hm?" All For One is testing you and when you're so weak mentally and physically all you can do is comply. You hardly have the will to live after those experiments and being in All For One's presence was starting to make your quirk flare, sending pain shooting through your entire body.
"Yes Sir." You stand holding your breath and gritting your teeth against the pain that shoots through your spine and head upon standing. You give a respectful bow and take your leave. Part of you is tempted to hover behind the door so you can hear what they will be talking about, but you know that it is highly likely All For One can still see you...so you head to Dabi.
"You look like shit." The familiar voice answers from across the bar and you nod. "Come on." Dabi raises an eyebrow at the demand, tempted to put you back in your place, but upon seeing how weak you seem and how shaky your movements are, he has a feeling today is not the day. (Good thinking -_-)
Dabi and you head to the roof but before he can start asking questions you break out into a run. You hop painfully from building to building until your adrenaline kicks into overdrive. "I hate him!" You scream into the sky before finally collapsing on a roof about three blocks down from headquarters. Dabi lands softly behind you, hardly making a sound.
"What did that thing do to you?" Dabi asks, pulling out two cigarettes. "Everything he could do without Tomura losing control." You gasp and bite your lip realizing you may have just fucked up. "Don't worry I won't tell anyone you use his name. I'm sure the position your in is as bad as mine at this point." You sigh taking the cigarette he just lit for you. "No offense but you seem like everything's fine...what is going on in your life?"
Dabi runs his fingers through his dark hair looking out onto the city. The sun has just met the horizon and the pinks, purples, and oranges are breathtaking. "I might tell you one day little mouse." You shake your head giving him the most dramatic eye roll that you can muster. "Dabi, I'm not the enemy."
He looks over eyes full of mourning and rage, "Y/N everyone is the enemy. I learned that as a child." You nod looking off into the distance. "Ya know I think I'm beginning to feel that way myself. I finally get to a safe place...with villains but...at least you guys care on some level...then All For One wants to twist that into something hideous? I'm tired, Dabi. Tired of seeing a glimpse of happiness and joy, then having it ripped away...at least this time I got to touch a bit of that joy...as a hero it was always just out of reach."
Dabi pretends not to notice the tear that travels down your cheek. "Everyone deserves to mourn the things they've lost and especially what's been taken by heroes." A sad smile creeps along your lips but it feels dirty. Like the smile itself is infested with evidence of your pain. "I hate being vulnerable." Dabi nods knowing that feeling all too well.
"Oh hey! Uh so funny story. I'm going to be under your full control soon." Dabi lifts an eyebrow inquisitively. "Excuse me?" You smile a true smile this time finding his reaction rather endearing. "Next week I'm all yours. Orders from big bad himself." Dabi's mouth hangs open slightly as he processes this information. "Well little mouse. Time to learn what being a pet should be like."
After a few moments of silence you guys end up lighting a blunt and smoking. The marijuana haze lessens some of your pain, but unfortunately not your heartache. You like Dabi. He is great to be around...most days, but being out of your Master's care is probably the most terrifying thing to take place since your arrival here. "Please don't hurt me."
The sentence slips from your lips like the water in a stream. Your tone is hushed and thoughtful, making his heart swell. "Oh Y/N I'll only hurt you if you consent." He gives you a smirk before graciously changing the topic. He gives you the space to explain and process exactly what happened today, and your feelings on the matter. Maybe being stuck with him for a little bit won't be as bad as you had feared....
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A/N: Hey everyone! It's that shitty time of year again (at least for me). I hope you are all taking good care of yourself, and implementing self care <3 I hope you have a wonderful holiday season!
I wanted to thank my readers for sticking with the story. This is one of my most proud accomplishments! Now I was wondering would anyone like a Yule/Christmas one shot? It would be based on this story line just kinda like a cut scene. Lmk what you think and as always my lovelies please stay safe out there. <3
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