A hero's fall (Shigarakixreader)ONHOLD

truth and pain

TW: PTSD flashback, mention of ED, and sexual assault.   

chapter 3

 You come to fairly quickly from the faint but not before falling straight into Shigaraki's shoulder. He grunts in annoyance but allows you time to stand up right. "I'm sorry Shigaraki...I can't seem to stay straight today."

You giggle against the dizzy feeling in your head and he walks with you close behind to the bar where he sits you down in a shabby booth in the corner.

"What happened?" Kurogiri questions hoping his young Master hadn't made yet another mistake that would set them back. "The damn thing just fell over on me." Shigaraki spits when suddenly twice appears with as much junk food as he could find. Even just hearing the bags crinkle gets you to perk up.

"Here ya go kid." The man says in a deep voice before erupting in a far more high pitched tone, "You're adorable! I bet Endeavor liked havin' you around!" You glare at the villain and through a mouth full of gummy worms say, "A little too much in fact. Now please leave me alone." Twice slumped mumbling an apology than screeching, "It was a compliment!" To Toga who stood leaning against a wall. They both leave together babbling about how I was just being boring. You turn to see if anyone stayed and find yourself alone with Kurogiri and Shigaraki.

"So what's the plan?" You ask finishing as much junk food as you feel comfortable eating. "You are going to be our middle man. I need information from Endeavor's office and I know for a fact he wants you back." You stand abruptly and scream, "I will never ever go back to that agency. I promise you I will fight you if I have to. You shoot a warning laser of what little energy you have stored at a cement wall. The moment it makes contact there is a huge hole.

Shigaraki tells Kurogiri to leave and he does so hesitantly, continuing to keep an ear out from the hallway. "Y/N you hate heroes. They clearly wounded you in some way. Why not help us?" You scowl at his words and glare at his direction. "I am willing to do preactically whatever you want, but not this." You shake your head hoping you don't have to fight him, knowing full well you would lose.

"You better have a damn good reason for that Y/N." Shigaraki growls sitting across from you. He removes the hand from his face and sets it down on the table. "Also if your power is stronger during the day why would he force you into night shifts?"

Your brows meet in the middle of your forehead a grimace plastered on your face. "Let's just say women's rights are nothing to Enji Todoroki." Shigaraki's eyes fill with understanding as he gazes down at your quivering frame. "Well then, let's make him pay." You nod "And everyone who pretended they didn't see." You growl remembering the receptionist who had walked in on him with his hand around your throat.

"I may not be willing to go inside myself, but I can promise you I'm not the only one fed up." Shigaraki nods and tilts his head dangerously. "So...pet, I'll give you a week to get me something useful." You nod and rise to go to your room. "Oh and Y/N," You turn on your heel to face the man across the room from you.

"That man will pay for touching you. Should've been mine from the beginning." And with that he walks off leaving you confused about if you were being hit on or threatened. You thank the universe for locking doors as you walk into your room. You collapse on the bed, and the tears you have been holding back since arriving flow freely.

You do your best to keep the sounds you make to a minimum as you feel yourself unravel. 'Why me?' Your heart screams, sending you straight into the fetal position.

-FlashBack-

Endeavor walks around his desk and stands in front of you. "I'm moving you to the night shift." The man announced in a stern tone. "Uh...sir, my quirk is most powerful during the day. If there's a problem with workers I'm sure some of the night owls here wouldn-" "Shut it already. You are going to work night shifts and that's final." You grit your teeth at being cut off mid sentence but give a respectful nod. "So Y/N..." He circles your chair like a shark ready to go into full frenzy mode. "I think I will patrol with you for a few days to make sure you can handle the workload." Your throat goes dry hearing the predatory undertone in each of his words. "I can do it, Endeavor sir." Your voice wavers when you address him and it gives away just how terrified you are. Then flashes of him assaulting you tumble around your mind. Memories spiraling into others so fast that you don't realize it isn't all real and happening again.

Shigaraki bolts upright hearing a high pitched scream. His head tilts toward Kurogiri who nods, giving Shigaraki confirmation that he was not hearing things. You scream again only this time it's one word over and over again. "No." He bolts up the stairs telling Kurogiri to be ready for an attack just in case.

Your door is locked so he uses his quirk to disintegrate the door knob only to find you curled up alone, scratching your arm so hard there's blood. He impulsively begins scratching as well. 'Just like me...' he thinks to himself before speaking. "Y/N I know this is a panic attack. I used to have them everyday. Breath and whoever you see will go away." His voice barely reaches you but what you do hear you latch onto as if the words themselves could pull you out of this darkness.

Shigaraki puts his hands behind his back and allows your head (that's hanging a bit off your bed) to hit against his leg. The touch jolts you back to reality and you look up in a crazed panic. "You came back to me quicker than expected." He analyzes before moving a bit away from you. You grab his pant leg staring at the floor, you mumble, "Please promise me that if I work for you...that you won't let him hurt me again..." The plea makes Shigaraki feel powerful and oddly responsible for you. Something he had not felt in a very very long time.

"Pet I wouldn't dream of it. You know..." He trails off sitting beside you and puts his hands in his pockets forever being extremely cautious around you who gave him so many different feelings he felt he could not trust himself. "I have been quite interested in getting you specifically out of that agency for quite some time, although admittedly before all of this I was ready to kill if you refused." You look up at him in surprise. "And you wouldn't now?" You ask genuinely curious. 

His sigh makes you think perhaps you shouldn't have asked that question. "I wouldn't but I'd have to have you killed." You shrug understanding that at this point you know too much to just walk away. "Why do you care so much?" The words sound colder than you had intended. You just could not comprehend why someone so powerfully evil would ever take an interest in anyone let alone you. He sighs again and scratches his neck unsure of how to explain.

"I saw you once. You killed a hero that turned to villainy with the teacher douche. He was appalled but you laughed it off and said perhaps you should change career paths. The teacher had to cover it up for ya didn't he?" Your eyes widened having thought up until this point that only Aizawa had seen your little meltdown that night. "That was...over a year ago...you've been paying attention ever since?" The question hangs heavily in the air for a moment as Shigaraki scratches. "More or less."