A hero's fall (Shigarakixreader)ONHOLD

experiments

TW: blood, medical doc, stockholm syndrome (This will be continued long term), mentions of SA

Chapter 15

Yes Master." Shigaraki replies calmly, but you can see how his scratching quickens. The TV clicks off and in comes Kurogiri. "I am sorry little one but you must do as told." The kind words from your friend makes you worry even more...he's never sounded so forlorn..."I'm fucked aren't I?"

You ask your Master as you both get out from behind the booths table. "Will I need my computer?" You ask hopeful that you can somehow do some work today. The list of hero abusers sent by a "fan" has you itching for true justice to be served for your fellow survivors.

"Leave everything pet. Where we are going there is certainly no signal and he is very unlikely to let you leave standing upright let alone get work done." Your Master seems so calm...it kind of hurts and your stomach does major nauseating flips inside you. "Oh..." Is all you can think to say before you both walk into Kurogiri's gate.

You arrive in a large white room. There are blood and claw marks littering the room. Everywhere you look is covered in some type of substance. In the corner of the room there is medical equipment you've seen in hospital rooms visiting injured heroes.

The setting shakes you to your core...were you guys going to be attacked? You can see on Shigaraki's face that he is just as surprised as you. A round little man with eyes that shine with a drive for power opens a gray door stepping through in far too spritely of a  mood. 'You're no villain or hero. You're just scum aren't you?' Your snarky comment does not make it past your lips but the more you think about everything the more frozen you become. Glued to the floor beside your Master like a frightened puppy.

"Sorry about the current accommodations. Until I know your power a bit better I think it best you stay in here for the tests." You nod at the man who stands close to the entrance. Likely so he can run if things go other than how he has planned. "This is going to be like school...only a bit more painful."

The man scurries along with glee but before shutting the door motions with his hand as if to tell you to follow. Shigaraki steps to accompany the doctor, and like a good pet you try to follow. "Dogs stay here." The doctor mutters under his breath. Shigaraki's body language changes but only very slightly. "Y-yes sir..." Your reply is weak and quite filling the sadistic little man with glee.

"Now then, let's see what your pet is capable of." The doctor says from behind the one way window. You despise not knowing where your Master is. The separation anxiety kicks you in the stomach, doubling you over. "No no no no no..." You mutter the word over and over rocking slightly.

(Quick A/N consider the fact you've been through extreme trauma, all of those deaths, violations, and then your rock is pulled away. I wanted to do my best to depict how one may act in a stockholm situation.)

"Your pet seems defective." The doctor states turning to Shigaraki. "You removed it from its Master. It does not act on its own at all anymore." The doctor's eyes widen in awe of the man before him. "You have it that well trained so soon? You are the worthy successor." Shigaraki nods, grabbing the microphone for your cell with a fabricated annoyed sigh.

"My pet, acting this way is not what I would desire from you now is it?" His voice rings through the room and relief rushes through you. "S-sorry M-master..." You stutter pathetically, bringing a beautifully triumphant smirk to Shigaraki's lips. "Now do as the good doctor says and I will give you a reward tonight."

You smile against the nausea and sadness giving a nod hoping he can see you. "I'll be a good pet Master." And with that Shigaraki turns toward the doctor with a grin so terrifyingly gorgeous it could make a heart stop. "Just don't kill it doctor, I may have to kill you in return."

You stand in the middle of the room, your body glowing slightly with all your nerves on edge like this. "Put on the bracelets and collar please Y/N." The doctor's voice rings out a bit shaky but you can't focus, a growl escapes you. The anger and anxiety of being away from Shigaraki is almost too much, but like an obedient dog you do as you're told. As you do so an invisible door in the wall opens to reveal none other than the office worker who witnessed you being choked that time in Endeavors office.

"What the hell?" Shigaraki shifts slightly knowing this test well. He stopped caring about killing long ago, but you had only ever killed for justice purposes...so who was this?

You laugh out loud looking at the quivering intern. "What the fuck is this some kind of fight?" You look at the girl whose quirk is water manipulation. "Remember me sweetie?" You coo as you approach her. The look in your eye is like something she's never seen. Terror rips through the girl but before you do a thing she whispers, "He hurt me too."

The simple words freeze you completely, the vengeful glow flares before disappearing, scaring the girl more. "What is going on SunBeam?!" Hearing your old hero name sends rage shooting back through you. "Don't call me that." You say through gritted teeth earning you a frightened little nod.

"Hey kid, ya gotta kill her." The doctor's voice sounds eager coming over the speakers and it sickens you. "Wait are you..." The realization that you've switched sides and her demeanor changes completely.

"I will not kill an innocent." You declare loudly. The heroism in you is not completely lost and Shigaraki knew that...it worries him that it seems as though All For One knows as well. "You have no choice pet. Kill or be killed." The words of your Master click in your brain but you are not willing to attack...that is until she slams you into a ball of water. You shake your head not wanting to hurt the girl.

She throws you across the room slamming your head into the tile...she may understand a part of your life but you know she's trained with you..."I'm sorry but you can't be the one to live." You shoot a laser beam at her burning the wall but it morphs back to how it was before. (This means he legit chose to make it scary which is bs)

"I need to know what my reward is!" You scream and suddenly begin to float slightly. Your eyes widen in panic but only for a moment. A surge of water hits your face striking you to the floor. You shoot a laser that takes out her leg completely.

Her blood covers the floor creeping toward you who lie panting on the ground. "I don't want this selene." You say shaking your head before laughing maniacally. "But ya know what...you threw the first blow." Your laser beam cuts straight through her heart and you lower back to the floor. 'fuck...'

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A/N: For transparency purposes I want to explain why this chapter was so brutal. I have been assaulted many times throughout my life and I have had my legs taken out from under me by other survivors as well as people who have no idea what they are talking about. I wanted to use this as a bit of a venting moment and it seemed to go well with this story. I hope this was not too much for you guys I try not to scare anyone. 

As always thank you so much for reading, and keep safe out there. <3