random oneshots

you do not need him

a lil sadder....this was meant to go somewhere else with a cliche love story ending but i changed my mind last minute, i still have some stuff written down about the lovey dovey version if y'all want that. made using oc's :)

Word count: 910.

"8 years Alex, 8 fucking years! 8 years I spent ignoring my feelings, trying to make them go away. 8 years smiling every time you talked about the girl you loved, while there was a girl in front of you who adored you and would do anything for you. 8 years of holding back my feelings Alex, and keeping them to myself. You know why? Because I loved you, and I didn't want to loose you, to loose our friendship. But I guess I was the fucking dumb one. You'd never love me the way I love you, and yesterday proved it all." She said. She had started crying from the last few sentences, shivering and sobbing as she stood there.

Tears started to flow down Alex's cheeks as well. He never wanted this to happen. He never wanted to hurt his best friend, the only person who had always been there for him. The only person that had been there when his dad left, when he got drunk, when he was hopelessly in love, when he got into fights and when he was feeling down, Victoria was always there.

"Vicky....I'm so fucking sorry. I know it's not gonna cut it now, I was the biggest dickhead to you. I chose a stupid crush over you, the one person that has been there with me since I could remember. I'm so so sorry for everything I've put you through. Fuck.. I'm so sorry for yesterday. I shouldn't have left you, I shouldn't have gone after her. I don't even love her, I love you goddamn it. I love you. More than I've loved anyone else. And I can't believe I didn't realize it earlier. God, I'm so fucking stupid and dumb and an asshole and I don't deserve you. I never deserved you. I'm so fucking sorry Vic..I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.." He must've said sorry a billion times as he cried and wrapped his arms around Victoria.

They both sobbed in each other's arms, holding on for dear life. They loved each other, they knew they loved each other. They never thought this would be happening. They never thought they'd go through what they went through together this past year.

Alex pulled away and looked down at Vicky's tear stained face. Her eyes and nose were red and swollen, but she didn't hiccup anymore, not like she used to when they were children. Alex smiled at that. He smiled at her. At how far they had come together. "Vic, I love you so much. I love you so much and I hate myself for taking so long to realize it. I love you, I love you, I love-"

Of course, he was interrupted by a kiss, Victoria's kiss. His hands tightly wrapped themselves around her waist and Victoria's hand held his cheeks as they shared the kiss they'd been waiting for since forever. Come on now, they deserved this. Let them have their cheesy ending.

Vicky pulled away, her eyes fluttering open and meeting Alex's. He connected their foreheads and smiled that smile. The smile that always made Victoria weak. "I've been wanting to do that for a while." Vicky said truthfully. Alex laughed quietly and nodded in agreement. "You were much better than I thought." He smirked. Victoria rolled her eyes. "You're walking on thin ice here, buddy."

"What?? It was a compliment." He said and kissed her cheek. "Was I any good?" He smirked again. Victoria sighed and laughed. "Shut up you dickhead." She said before kissing him again. Alex gladly returned the kiss, never wanting to let go. This was the ending he wanted. In fact, it was the ending they both wanted. And they deserved a happy ending.

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But sometimes you don't always get what you deserve.

My hand lifted up from the paper, it had already started to ache from all the writing I'd done. I looked down at the paper, stained with my tears.

If only that was how that's conversation really gone down. If only he did value our friendship, if only he did value me.

"I will never love you like that Victoria...please stop trying."

Those words replaying in my head only made me cry more, my entire body shivering. When you love someone so much, you'd do anything to make them happy. But I'm done. As much as it pains me, I'm done being his second choice. He never saw me as his friend, just as someone who'd be there for him whenever he fucked up, but I'm done.

So I'm crying, not because my love was unrequited, but because of all the times I spent by his side, thinking that he was actually glad to have me there. I'm crying because of how naive I was and I'm crying because of all the time I wasted with him.

But no more. I deserve better. I might be left broken for a little bit because of him, but I will pick myself up, because I do not need him.

You do not need him.

I don't need a love story to be happy, so that is the name of my story. And my story starts....

Now.