masochist ˚ ༘ ⋆｡˚ sanzu h. x reader

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(a/n: there will be other languages spoken in this chapter! just a little note that wtv is said is not important unless it's translated and that goes for all the following chapters with other languages!)

— y/n's pov —

'...you want to break up with me?'

my eyes snapped open - was that a dream?

yea..... weird, i just told sanzu about my highschool relationship yesterday and already had a dream about it.

its whatever, the universe is probably just telling me that i'm lonely.

*buzz....buzz*

i took my phone that had slid under my pillow while i was asleep, sakura was calling me.

"mhh.... hello?" "y/n!! did you and hayami get home well? i texted you as soon as i saw the message but you didn't respond" "don't worry, we're fine... how are you and matsuda?" i chuckled.

"yea... we had fun!!"

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i quickly got ready for work because even though it was sunday i had to go. i didn't mind though, sundays would he so boring if i had nothing to do.

i fixed my uniform and looked at myself in the mirror - sometimes i think about dying my hair, getting piercings or even tattoos. i might actually get a piercing, just a small one tho.

about the hair... i think reddish hair would suit me? not ginger, maybe black with a slight hue of red, it would look so cool!..... but i also like my hair naturally black.. and i'm scared hair dye could mess up my hair.

i kept staring at myself.

damn. compared to my other friends... i look like an npc.

like.... i know hayami's hair is just dyed, and sakura is just extremely pretty.... and sanzu.. - does he even count as my friend? - well, i don't know about sanzu, is his hair dyed or natural?

but it doesn't matter wether its dyed or not - if you would put me next to them or even in between them i'd look completely out of place.

black hair, light brown eyes...

a poet would say 'goldish-brown eyes', but i'm not a poet.

honestly, even matsuda. his dark brown hair makes a perfect contrast with his green eyes.

i'm not saying im ugly, not at all, i think i'm pretty good looking... i mean, i pulled a literal gang member when i was in high school!

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i walked into the shop - there was a lot more going on than usual.