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{21} anatomy of a murder {21}

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(a/n: y'all rindou x sakura is not canon and rindou and matsuda are not getting together 😭)

— y/n's pov —

matsuda :p
they called me

matsuda :p
they said they found her

matsuda :p
📍 location

sanzu started his car, we both went to the location.

usually, i would've went alone.. i'm just taking sanzu with me because he was at my place, and i don't wanna leave him there all alone.

"i really hope she's alright.." i mumbled while staring down at the screen, waiting for matsuda eventually sending another text to tell me if she's okay or not.

sanzu drove really fast.. it didn't take us too long to arrive.

i saw a small cabin near a lake, a lot of ambulances and police cars.

we both got out of the car and looked around if we could see matsuda or sakura....

i spotted matsuda. he was sitting on the ground, staring down at his hands.. and i also saw sakura.

"no way..." i mumbled to myself, i walked closer as they slowly put her into a body bag.

she was dead... her hair was wet... she also looked really beat up.

i couldn't believe it, i just stood there, frozen.

they slowly closed the body bag, covering up her lifeless body. - i tensed up as i suddenly felt a cold hand on my shoulder.. but it was just sanzu's.

"y/n..." i turned to him and threw my head into his chest while wrapping my arms around him, i couldn't hold in my tears.

sanzu stood frozen for a few seconds before he wrapped his arms around me as well, his hand patted my head. "i wanna go back home..." i mumbled into his suit. "then we'll go.." "but matsuda-" "the policemen will take care of him"

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sanzu brought me back home, i have been crying the whole time. we were sitting on my bed, he was hugging my head while i let out all my tears right into his arm.

he's been trying to comfort me the whole time but i was way too sad. "shh.... calm down y/n, stop crying please.." "but she- she was my best friend! what am i gonna do without her?" i kept sobbing into his arm.

he cupped my cheeks and slowly raised my head, causing me to look at him. "i know it's hard to accept... but you will have to get over it, trust me.. i'll help you if you want me to"

get over it? accept it?

is it acceptable..?

i slowly sat myself up, sanzu pulled me into a hug once again.