𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐒 ˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳ 𝐧𝐜𝐭 𝐝𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐦 - 𝐡𝐮𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫 𝐠𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐮

⇛ 𝐂𝐇. 𝟔𝟔

"jihyun." haechan called out, followed by a knock on her door. she had been cooped up in her room for a whole day after in the incident with chenle and having failed to talk to him again.

"oh... hey." she whispered, dropping her knee from her chest. she didn't have time to be surprised that he was here because her thoughts had been so full of chenle.

"you okay?" he asked, taking a seat beside her on the bed.

"yeah, i'm fine. what's up?"

"i've come to apologise like jaemin."

"jaemin hasn't..." she replied, confused.

"oh. he was going to a couple days ago but i guess he decided to give you time after what happened with chenle."

"does everyone know about that?" she asked, alarmed.

"renjun told us you ran after him because he was upset and when you never came back, he guessed it went badly. also, yuta overheard your conversation so he told jisung about it considering he's close with chenle."

"fuck." jihyun whispered, pressing her palms to her face. "i messed up real bad."

"don't be upset. he'll come around. this is chenle we're talking about." haechan said, rubbing her knee.

"i have no right to be upset. i'm worried. i hurt him really badly. i've never seen him so hurt. i just want to make it up to him, but i have no idea how."

"you'll figure it out, you always do. you need to snap out of it." he clapped his hands loudly in front of her face. "wake up! you're not yourself. you're moping around and wallowing instead of doing something. what happened to the jihyun who knew exactly what to do in any scenario?"

"she died with doyoung." she mumbled. "ever since his death, i haven't been the same. i can't even think properly."

"i'll give you something to think about..." he said and she turned to look at him, shocked, her ears turning red. "...my apology."

"oh..."

jihyun was embarrassed. she had completely misinterpreted what he was saying and deluded herself with other thoughts. it was ridiculous.

"did you think i was going to say something dirty?" haechan laughed and she went even redder in the face.

"no! that's absurd. never!"

"aww ji, i thought you were a good liar." he teased, leaning forward so their faces were closer and she'd be even more embarrassed.

"shut up!" she exclaimed, pushing his face away. "just go ahead with your apology and get out."

"okay fine." he chuckled, sitting up straight. as he did, his demeanour changed to a more serious one. the quick change was impressive. "i'm so sorry, jihyun. i'm sorry about a lot of things, for fighting with jaemin, openly talking about the incident between you two even though it made you uncomfortable, for hurting renjun and you and just being a complete cocky idiot, letting my pride get in the way of everything. none of this should have happened."

"i forgive you, hyuck. i couldn't stay mad for long. after all, i am to blame for the fight. i've been messing around with everyone... i'm so gross. i let my feelings take over and i acted on them, doing whatever i wanted. even yesterday... because of what i did, i upset chenle. i can't keep doing this. this is all happening because i can't figure out my feelings. i'm pathetic."

"it's not all your fault... we're all to blame really. it's not like you're acting on your own. we're the ones initiating things and fooling around as well. hell, i told you i wanted to kiss you and i encouraged you to act. if anything we've been making this even harder for you." he said never once breaking eye contact with her.