Lalisa Love Me (HunLisa Fanfiction)

24: FREEDOM

24: FREEDOM
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L I S A

Dancing was my first love. I fell in love with performing since I was just a little kid.

I have a great goal.

Ever since I realize that I have what it takes, I have the guts to, I sacrificed everything that I could just so that I can make it. I left my friends, my family, my home and my country for my dream.

I miss my mom.

There are times that I want to hug her and tell her how tired I am. But I couldn't. Not just because of the distance.. I am afraid of what her reaction would be.

Alongside with me achieving my dreams is me realizing that every idols were not just train to perform. We were also trained to be the perfect doll, a puppet of our agency for the fans to love.

The consequence of me achieving my dream? My own freedom to chose.

***Flashback

"I am Jang Sung Kyu, Sehun and Exo's manager." A middle aged man introduce himself politely.

I was confused because I received a text from Sehun asking me to meet him inside a café. But it's not him who came.. his manager? I bow to introduce myself even though I am nervous. "I'm Lisa."

"I know." He said as he looked at me.

I am not an idiot. I already have a hunched of what was happening. It's not like it's the first time that a manager is interfering with their talent's relationship.. especially if it could affect their talent's work. I may be a rookie in this industry, but I know how this works.

Silence enveloped between us for a while.

"The agency wants you to break up with him."

I don't know what to say.

The idea of breaking up with Sehun inside my head is not new. I know there will come a day that I will have to do it. I'm just.. not yet prepared.. I guess?

What do I do? What will I say? At the back of my mind, I want to shout I don't want to!

"You know... you may be a rookie but you know that idols dating don't really work? Right?" Mr. Jang Sung Kyu said. "Fans will feel betrayed. You will get a lot of hate. And Sehun.. as well."

I gulped. "I know."

"Will you let that happen? Sehun have a lot of fans and you are just from a rookie group. There's a high chance that your group will get a lot of hate as well. Do you want that?"

I held my hand tightly. Chaeyoung, Jisoo Unnie, and Jennie Unnie will be affected as well.. we are in a group, of course my scandal, a dating scandal including me would drag them down!

"I want you to break up with him. Your agency and Sehun's wants you two apart." He said. "You'll do that, right? I know it's not easy but I hope you made the right choice, Miss Lisa."

Choice? What choice did he gave me?

My stomach run cold and I don't know what to say. My eyes were bloodshot as I tried so hard to stop myself from crying infront of a stranger.

I have no choice but to nod.

I can't believe I even tried.

I was selfish for a while. For thinking and for hoping that maybe.. I can be in love with someone and not be force to break up with him due to our job. I didn't even think of my members, of how much we train so hard, we sacrificed a lot just to be in this group.