Lunarian

Chapter 19

Kate had been alone. And when she was no longer alone, she was kidnapped. It's as if her life was supposed to be one of misery. It was if she was destined to be miserable, and destined to make those around her miserable.

Once Kate had reached the Dome, she sprinted off to one of the empty houses. No longer filled with a family. No one living inside to make memories. It's just an empty shell. What meaning is there to my life? Am I really just a waste of space like this house? Why does my life have to be so miserable? Kate thought. She was so lost in her own thoughts she didn't notice that Connor had been standing at the door the entire time.

"Kate." He said, walking over to where Kate was standing. Kate turned and looked at Connor. She dropped to her knees.

"Connor. Why is it my life has to be miserable? Why do I have to suffer?" Kate said, her voice barely a whisper. Her hair was casting shadows over her eyes, mostly so Connor couldn't see the tears forming in her eyes.

"Kate. I don't know why it was your life that had to be this hard, but you don't have to be alone anymore. Right?"

"Yeah. But we both know this won't last. You'll die thousands of years before me, and I'll just be alone again." Kate looked over at Connor, and when he didn't speak, she continued.

"I'm scared. I don't want to be alone again. I hate being alone. Even being kidnapped and tortured is worse than being alone."

"Kate. I guess I should tell you then." Connor said. Kate looked over at him, a confused look plastered on her face.

"Soon, the people on Mars are going to blow up the Earth. And if that happens, we'll probably die too. I just thought you should know." Connor said, avoiding Kate's eyes.

"Of course. Just when I thought it couldn't get any worse. Thanks for telling me Connor. I guess now, we'll both die, and we'll both go wherever people go when they die, and neither of us will have to suffer anymore." Kate said. She was looking at the ground a small smile on her face.

"Kate? Are you alright?" Connor asked.

"I'm fine. I'm just fine. I don't like this life anyway. All 1633 years of it. They were all filled with suffering, pain, and sorrow. Maybe I wasn't supposed to be alive. Maybe I should just die. It's not like anyone will miss me." With that, Kate stood up and walked to the empty kitchen in the empty house whose only residents are the bloodstained furniture that was last owned over a thousand years ago. The empty house whose residents died in a stupid war, trying to protect what they hold dear.

In the kitchen, Kate looked around until she found what she was looking for. She picked it up and looked at it's shiny surface. She could see her reflection in the blade. She looked almost insane, as if she was ready to murder someone.

"I always loved thinking about what the earth was like. All I knew was from what the Elders told me as they died. They passed their power to me, and since then, I've always known in the back of my mind what the Earth was like. But what good does that do me? I don't have any other Lunarians to share it with, and it just makes me remember how much I suffered while others lived without any pain." Kate said to herself. She looked over at the knife once again, before slicing the inside of her arm.

Kate sliced her arm three more times, and when she tried for a fourth, she found her hand was held back by another arm.

"Kate! What are you doing? You're hurting yourself!" Connor said, his voice laced with worry.

"That's the point. I can't even feel pain now. It just doesn't hurt, no matter how much I want it to!"

"Stop it Kate. Think about what you're doing!"

"I'm hurting myself. It's nothing compared to the testing I went through with the humans. I don't want to suffer anymore!" Kate said. She was crying.

"Kate, how does hurting yourself stop your suffering? You need to stop this!" Connor said.

"Your right. It doesn't help." Kate said, her voice monotone.

"See! Now you're listening to reason!"

"I need to die." Connor was shocked, and his grip on Kate's arm-the only thing stopping her-tightened.

"Kate. If you want to die that badly, then wait for the Earth to blow up! Don't do it Kate..."

"Don't try to stop me! I. Want. To. Die." Kate said. She lowered her head. I want to die. Let me end my suffering. Why? Why must you make me suffer too? Kate thought.

Kate pulled her arm away from Connor, and quickly sliced her arm one more time. She was crying, but was till numb to the pain as her arm bled.

"Kate! I guess... If you really want to die then kill yourself. But, promise me one thing. Think this through. Don't just kill yourself on a whim and regret it in the afterlife. Please just promise me that." Connor said. He turned and started walking out of the room.

"Fine." Kate said. I do want to die, but I can't bring myself to actually kill myself. I suffered for years. I want to die. I will see my family again. My family, who sacrificed themselves to let me suffer. I will never have to deal with the humans again. The humans who just wanted to save there own lives by using me. Connor can't stop me. And he's going to die soon anyway. I won't have to suffer anymore, but I also won't make any happy memories. I won't learn about the Earth. I'll die. I... I... I don't want to die! Kate thought, just as Connor had asked. suddenly, all the pain Kate couldn't feel before came at her full force. She winced, and tried not to scream.

Kate dropped the bloody knife. She ran from the room, tears streaming down her face. Connor was standing over in a corner, probably thinking himself. When Kate ran into the room, he looked up, surprised. Kate walked over to him and buried her head in his shoulder, tears streaming down her face.

"I don't want to die. Connor, I want to live. But, we're going to die. When the Earth blows up... But I don't want to die."

"I know, Kate. I know."