(December 13th,2022)
You helped open the floodgates
Now they rampage through without an end in sight
I want to close them sometimes
But I'm reminded why you helped open them in the first place
Keeping things to myself has almost killed me
Pushing things down turned me into an emotionless puppet for everyone else
I know everyone thinks I am too open, too needing
But I don't care if they listen, I don't care if they hear
At least this pain isn't just for me
Because one day I hope their floodgates open
And when they do, I will listen and I'll help you swim
Knowing in my most lowest moments I held my head above the water because someone else taught me how to swim
Then I realized that it was me holding my head above water the whole time
In this world it's me vs. me but in the best way
My floodgates were built to keep people I needed to love away
And those I loved the most hidden from the light of day
Sometimes I wonder if I should close them
If they are hurting those I've loved and let go of
But lately I just wish you were here to help steady the flowing water
And to show you how I float
YOU ARE READING
Your Struggles is What Creates Your Depth
PoesiaA collection of poetry,and random thoughts written when I was struggling to find my way.
