As it was

Chapter 2

Chapter 2
All my entire life I thought love wasn't real lol, I still think it isn't but I know what my mom and dad feel for each other is magical. My mom and dad met in high school, according to my grandparents my dad was one of the naughtiest kids my grandpa had ever taught. I don't usually talk about my dad, he is one of the people who has caused me so much pain. If I'm being honest I don't think my dad likes me very much, he likes my step sibling more and I'm not jealous or anything but at times I would want him to be the one putting effort. My dad barely calls me and it doesn't bother me what bothers me is that he could go a whole lifetime without thinking of me and in his eyes it would be alright with him. I love my dad so much but at times I wish he wasn't my dad, he barely acts like he is so there isn't much difference. He's always busy for me or he makes he believe that he is. Should a daughter have to beg for her own father's love and affection? Not having my dad around has never actually bothered me, I like it when it's mum and I, we always have fun together anyway but at times I just want to have a dad with me. I'm grateful for my mom, she plays both roles in my life. I've seen how strict some dads are to their children and I'm scared of fathers not my friends' dads though, I barely talk to their parents but I'm great with it. Talking to parents isn't hard for me maybe it's because I was raised in a Muslim household. I would much rather not having a dad than having one who always fights with my mom because hey that would be my limit, I'm the only one allowed to talk to my mom the way I do no one else. Today is a warm Wednesday and prince calls me a few minutes after I wake up as always. I don't think I've realized how much this boy actually talks I always sit and listen to him, he always calls me to check up on me every morning, I love him for that. Prince is always found with Bruno, that's his best friend, I always call them gay because of the amount of time they spend with each other no wonder why they are both single. "Good morning Aliyah" Bruno said to me and I instantly replied back with a "hey" I could see prince wasn't happy that Bruno and I were talking. Before the situation got more awkward I said "Let me wake up and do my morning routine, I'll call you later" and as soon as I said that I quickly cut the call before things got any worse. I'm not allowed to talk to Bruno, prince has made it very clear that I'm not. I wouldn't blame him though. He doesn't let me talk to Bruno because of the night we kissed. Yes Bruno and I kissed. It was at prince's birthday party, Bruno and I got close and prince got furious of course. He didn't speak to me the whole November- December. It was the worst time of my life, miserly because he wasn't willing to forgive me whatsoever and I was going through other stuff that I could only talk to prince about and since he wasn't talking to me I had to keep it in me for so long that I think I'm  now immune to heart break. Honestly I wouldn't take back the kiss with Bruno, he and I have a special connection. Bruno is an amazing, extraordinary person who doesn't care about himself first. He would be going through the worst shit ever but whenever I needed him he would drop it all and come to me, isn't that true love? I really appreciate him, he's the best honestly I just wish he finds someone who treats him so well that I even get jealous. Bruno and I always watch adventure time when we are together or talk about how shitty life is. He would always tell me "Aliyah
I just want you to be happy" and of course he knew that I wanted to be happy with someone who isn't him. Now that I think about it Bruno was my guardian angel in disguise. I think he might have accidentally saved my life.  Bruno also calls me Bruno for some reason, I never got to ask him why he calls me that, maybe it's because we are so alike. The funny thing is that I don't get why prince is didn't speak to me during that period but he spoke to Bruno every day. That's not right, right? It isn't but I understand where he's coming from like wtf I kissed his best friend and made him feel like he was being replaced by him. That isn't true at all though I would never replace him, I love him way too much to do that to him. He will never understand and I understand why, being second option to many people makes you feel like you could never be the first option for someone but today I decide to hang out with prince and Bruno since holidays are almost over and I know I'll be very busy with school. A few hours later Naya joins us and it's always fun when I'm with her. A lot happened today. For starters my dad called to "check up on me". It was nice but I didn't have anyone to tell. I bet if I was still talking to Jaden I would have told him. He's the only one who understands about my dad.