As it was

Chapter 5

The next thing I realize is that its 2 a.m. and I haven't eaten anything the whole day. I think my mom noticed because there's a plate on the kitchen table, she's used to it anyway. Funny thing is that I'm so used to not eating that I didn't feel hungry the whole day. I leave it for the next day. The next morning I get a text from willow saying that she'll be coming over. I buy her doughnuts because I know how much she loves them. We sit and talk for a while. She argues with her boyfriend, then she gets sad. I honestly believe that her boyfriend doesn't deserve her, but I can't comment because she'll start talking about how much she loves him and shit like that. I know how she feels. I've been in love once and honestly it was so stressful, emotional and loving. My whole life I thought love is so sweet and that if you're in love all your problems disappear, that was until I met Jaden. I met Jaden on the 20th of June two years ago. Ever since then my life had been different. Everything he did affected me emotionally, physically and especially mentally. It was an ordinary day for me I was going through WhatsApp and I saw prince posted his picture, at first I just viewed and left it. After some time I couldn't stop thinking about his smile, I asked prince who he was and he said he's some friend of his. He told me to text me and omg I was so scared. I sent him and hi and he immediately replied. After that we talked for a bit then he started giving me late replies. I lost interest for some time and stopped texting him for 2 days. I completely forgot about him that was until he called on the 17th of July. He called me at 6:05 p.m. and I was shocked of course, as I picked up to say hi, he said hi first. His voice is the most amazing voice I've ever heard in this world. He asked me out on a date, I had second doubts about it and said I was busy. I told my mom about him and she was like "you should've said yes, in fact call him and say you'll be free" which I did. I couldn't even sleep the whole night just thinking about him. The next day I was getting ready to meet Jaden and everyone was in the living room and I was so excited, to be honest I never thought that this boy would be such a big part in my life or that he would be the one who makes me feel like love isn't real. Before Jaden I never actually cared about how I was dressed. He never made me feel like I needed to change but I still did after seeing all the girls he's been with in the past. That day I personally thought I looked so pretty. I was so nervous to see him, I thought my heart would jump out of my chest. It felt weird because I was going to meet a stranger and somehow I felt safe. I waited for so long, for a second I thought that he was a catfish he made me wait for like 30 minutes and he wasn't answering his phone it made me so upset I honestly did not want to go and I was already panicking. I wanted to call my mom to come pick me up but then he called me. I was shaking because I thought he would cancel on me but he said "I'm behind you Aliyah" and just then my heart stopped beating for a second. I turned around to see a tall handsome dark-skinned boy wearing all black. He looks better in person and he gave me a hug. It's weird to say this but I felt a connection, like a spark. At first I was shy I couldn't speak but when we started talking everything felt okay. We both talked about what we like and dislike. He told me about his family, I felt comfortable with him. Then he kissed me, I felt a spark as his lips moved around mine. It was a kind of a connection you don't feel every day. I felt like there wasn't anything or anyone apart from us like the universe was just ours alone and we were trying to escape time. That moment was so magical and unreal like it was a dream until he kissed me again. I liked the feeling, which is really funny though the fact that I'll never get to feel like that again because of one guy. His soft lips touched mine and I just started blushing. I honestly don't believe in love but what we had was something else that day I was convinced that I was in love. Which is super true after that day I felt a spark between us I saw a side of him that nobody ever saw and maybe that's why I always thought that he could never hurt me. Of course I was wrong, he did hurt me, a lot. After that day things went up and down that I even got confused about our relationship. 17th of July was the happiest day of my life and I'll never forget it, years has passed but my feelings haven't gone.
Jaden is a guy I'll never forget, he will be the guy I'll tell my children about. He taught me that true love actually exists and it's sad that we never worked out but its life, what would be its meaning if we got everything we craved for? Jaden is a guy that goes through a lot of stuff, he doesn't tell me about it. I know he does.