As it was

Chapter 9

Like I'm still here but it didn't bother me I was too busy with my work. I can't understand school relationships, you see your partner every single day, and you don't get tired? I feel like its cringe. I don't think I'll ever date anyone in the same school as me plus I don't even find anyone at my school attractive. Once they leave I feel a bit relived, I like being alone. After lunch we had a free period and we played a game as a class, I honestly love my class. Not individually but I like it when we do things as a class. When I got home I found my grandma, I love my grandma. She's the best. When I was younger mom used to travel a lot for work so I would stay with her most of the time. She's the best. I don't normally eat but when my grandma is around it's not an option. I love her cooking but at times she over feeds me like a broiler. "Eat more nana" she say all the time. I don't think she understands that I'm no longer her little girl who doesn't care about her weight. Now that's one of my biggest insecurities. But I still decide to eat more. Later on mom and I go to a party at prince's place. It's his uncle's birthday. I had so much fun there honestly. Seeing Prince, dancing and laughing. I honestly felt happy. I'm always happy when I'm with prince regardless of where we are. Bruno comes after a while and it just gets better I love how we're partying on a school night but it doesn't bother me. When I get home I'm exhausted but feeling good. Today wasn't bad.  I wish everyday was like this, no worries and funny. It's finally Friday and Naya is coming over for the weekend. Once I see her I start screaming and jumping. I'm a different person when I'm with her. Mom isn't going to be home so that means Naya and I have the house all to ourselves. You see if we were normal teenagers we would probably throw a party or something like that but because we're Aliyah and Naya we will spend most of our time making tiktok and doing stupid things. Naya is a helplessly romantic and she loves reading novels. I like that too. We spend most of our night reading some wattpad story. Mom gets back home around 02 a.m. and of course Naya and I are still awake. By that time we were watching a horror movie. I can't watch horror but then Naya talked me into watching it. I hate how she's got this influence on me. She gets me to do anything, I like it. I love my relationship with naya we do everything together. We sleep together, we bath together, we basically do everything together. We end up both sleeping on my tiny one single bed but it's comfortable. The next morning we're both woken up by prince. Prince is basically attracted to every female friend I have but he gave the excuse that he was coming to check up on me. We spend most of our afternoon with each other I really love when my friends get along with my friends. Prince is very quiet and he doesn't like talking to people at all. That's why I hang out with him individually. Next thing I know it's already Monday and I'm at school, in class, learning physics. I don't understand the difference between physics and math like wtf. Why would I want to know why the ball took 3 seconds to fall? I blame newton because why would you care if an apple dropped on your head. I really hate physics, I hate all subjects except English and history. If it were up to me I would only learn those two subjects. I don't like English but it's easy so I can't complain. I've always been a fan of books anyways. Story books not school books. I love history so much and at times I enjoy religious education. It makes me understand Islam even more not only Islam but also other religions. I always pray, it's funny because there are so many things that I don't understand but I always find myself praying. It's my happy place, I always feel happy. Trust me I'm not your average Muslim girl, I'm different. It's finally Friday and I just got back from school. My plan is to sleep the whole afternoon because my sleeping schedule is messed up. Mom's at work and then first thing I do is call prince. He updates me on what's going on and how he's been. "How was school Aliyah" he asked and I could tell something was bothering me but I wasn't going to ask him again because he still wouldn't tell me. I decided that I would ask Bruno about it later. "School was awful as always" I replied and this time I was being really serious. I got an anxiety attack at school. I hate it when that happens, I always feel like fainting and just laying on the ground until I mysteriously get buried 6 feet underground. Today was one of those days where tapping my fingers didn't work. I always feel so anxious over the slightest thing at school. I was called to the office today and I didn't even know what I did. I didn't do anything but somehow I was called there. I couldn't help but think that something mysterious happened that I was responsible for. When I got there I was told that my mom is coming to pick me up early to get my eyes checked. Finally. My vision is bad AF.