JAH SAYS

27: madness 💜

⚠️Before you read, WARNING! There is mention of violence in this part that some might find disturbing! CAUTION⚠️

The raw flesh and protruding pieces of glass immediately throw me off and I turn my head away.

"Sorry-" Jah speaks.

Even though there's no blood...

"I'm sorry." He says, dropping his head and covering his face with his palms.

...I still struggle to look at his wounded fists.

"Jah...!" I say, grabbing ahold of his undamaged fingers for him to give me a look of surprise.

"Jah-" I try not to look away, blinking as my tears fall.

"I'm so-"

I cut his apology short, hugging him.

"No." He gently pushes me back and no longer being able to hold it together, I clasp my hand over my mouth and cry.

"I mean sorry, Herah...for everything. I'm sorry for this-" He says, losing his voice and dropping his head.

Stop crying already!

"Jah, I said its fine."

"No!" He yells.

His shout isn't filled with any rage or anger of any sort, rather, I sense...a kind of joy.

He drops his head once again, clearly upset with himself and tired from all of the strain he had just put himself through.

Yes, a kind of joy. Bottled up behind the steel bars of pain and frustration, there it lies. Jah's desire for happiness.

"See? There you go again. You're brushing it off... This-" Jah says, raising his bruised fists.

"-away! It is not fine, Herah!" He sobs.

No- please... Don't cry, Jah.

"You ask, where are we going? Well the truth is... to a slaughter house." He says and I dare not even breathe.

I'm not frightened.

"What if I told you that, huh?" Jah asks me, giving me that cold smile of his.

I'm not afraid.

"I'm taking you to a secluded place because I have to...kill you. You...have to die."

"Okay, then." I say.

I get it, Jah... I'm not sane enough to fight you or distrust you.

"What?" He questions and I smile.

"Let's go. We all die eventually, do we not? All I ever wanted, Jah... Was you." I say, exposing his face once more as the shield that lay over it falls, showing to me the real him.

You're so strong, Jah. I don't know anyone stronger than you on this planet, besides Jesus, himself... But...

"I wouldn't turn you down or not trust you for anything in the world and you're just so tough...! I love you Jah." I tell him, unable to shut up.