It Was Mariella Sienna

Chapter 24

Chapter 24

"Gusto mo bang dalhan kita ng sleeping pills?" Tanong ni Aliyah kaya nagsalubong ang mga kilay ko.

"No, thank you. I don't need one," I replied while shaking my head as I prepared myself from bed. "Why did you ask? Is there a problem?" I followed up with a question and she just shrugged.

"Nothing... But you look like you're drowned in your thoughts. You can't sleep if you're overthinking, Miss, and I'm guessing this is all about the England thing?" Hindi siya nagkamali ng hinala pero ang akala ko tagong-tago na ang ekspresyon ko para hindi niya mapansin na malalim kong pinag-iisipan ang mangyayare sa mga susunod na araw hanggang sa dumating ang araw ng pag-alis ko.

"Napag-iisipan mo na bang huwag ituloy?"

I was about to answer her, but I clammed my mouth shut right away when I realized that I feel like I'm giving an impulsive answer. Aliyah's head tilted and she narrowed her eyes as if she's trying to scan my face.

"Bakit 'di ka makasagot? Ang akala ko ba settled na sa 'yo na aalis ka?" Pinagkrus niya ang dalawa niyang braso at ngumisi na para bang gustong-gusto niyang nahuhuli niya ako. "Madali na lang dapat sa 'yong sagutin 'yung tanong ko. Puwera na lang kung may biglang sumulpot na dahilan kaya ka na nagdadalawang-isip."

I threw my hands on my face and I feel like my mind is about to explode because of too much thinking. I sighed, frustrated. "Aliyah, you know I can't do that. I must do this treatment." I could hear the frustration in my voice. It was trembling, not because of fear, but because of the pent up exasperation.

Suminghap si Aliyah at nagtungo sa kama ko. Umupo siya sa gilid at malalim akong pinagkatitigan. "Noong hindi pa kayo close ni Sir Liam, ano bang dahilan kung bakit gusto mong pumunta bukod sa gusto mong gumaling?"

Inalala ko ang mga dahilan ko kung bakit gusto kong tumuloy sa England. My perspective before and this time are different, which is why I'm conflicted.

"Dahil kay Aly... Gusto kong lumayo sa kanya," sagot ko.

"'E ngayon, ano namang dahilan mo ngayon na close na kayo ni Sir Liam?"

"Bakit ba si Liam ang nagiging subject—"

"'Cause you've been a different person these last three months," she cut me off before I even complained why she's always pertaining to Liam in our conversation. I want to defend myself, but I realized that it is somehow true. I've become different these last three months and it's because of him.

"And I know you're conflicted about leaving because of this person who brought a rainbow on your colorless life." I grimaced because of how she described it. Her eyes were shining and looked dreamy as she explained how my life turned into a colorful one when Liam came.

"Kung hindi na rin naman si Aly ang rason mo, bakit ka pa aalis?" Pagbabalik niya sa diskusyon kaya paunti-unting nawala ang ngiti sa labi ko. Yumuko ako at sinimulang paglaruan ang mga daliri ko.

"Because I really want to heal for the sake of myself and to the person I love," I replied in a low voice that almost sounded like a whisper. "I don't want to love him with fear... Fear that I might exhaust him because of how complicated I am. And feel regret or pity."